Thursday 19th October 

This mask I wear
So you can't see
The pain inside 
The real me 

Hidden from view 
The anxiety 
Innermost thoughts
Are quite beastly 

A phone consult
At nine thirty
Procedure prep
A priority 

The next few weeks 
Appointment spree
Just checking in
With oncology

Out of the blue
Colonoscopy 
A CT scan
Dermatology 

It bubbles up
Scanxiety 
Then the waiting
Results to me 

Thus, in my head
Not so carefree
A big black cloud
Hangs heavily 

Not all is as
It should be 
A rollercoaster 
Emotionally

Love you so much 
Treasured sons 
Beloved Mum 
xxxxx