Wednesday 31st January

.

It’s just so very different

Without you Angel, right here

Even though I like to think

I still feel your presence near

Smiling at your photographs

I cannot stop a falling tear

You meant so much to all of us

Now we’ve lost the one most dear

.

Love you forever

Beloved Angel son

xxxxxx

Driving home from Dorset, a rainbow appears through the trees

The sun about to break through the clouds

Windmills in the breeze

Tuesday 30th January

.

Waking up

Knowing someone is missing

Hurts

.

Carrying on

Because I know you’d want me to

Still hurts

.

Loving you

Is what I’ll continue to do forever

Doesn’t hurt

.

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

A beautiful blue sky morning in Dorset

Staying with your other Grandma (Dad’s mum)

All looks marvellous

Tangles of brambles and ivy

The ground boggy underfoot

A few clouds on the horizon

Driving down empty country roads

Gnarly tree trunks

Silhouetted against the sky

Monday 29th January

.

Wet and grey

Can’t go out to play

Damp and dreary

Feeling quite weary

Drizzly rain

Heavy clouds remain

If you were here

Sunshine would appear

But you’re up there

In heaven somewhere

.

And I miss you so much

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Grey skies behind leafless branches

Monochrome vista

A long drive to Wareham

Sunday 28th January

.

So many memories

But the thing is

Those happy memories

Seem to hurt the most

.

I’ll forever miss you

I’ll always love you

You’ll never be forgotten

.

And that is all

It will never change

Ever

.

Beloved Angel son

xxxxxx

Saturday 27th January

.

Grief invades every part of life

Permeating through each crease

Once it has an unyielding hold

There’ll be not a moment of peace

Changing your complete being

A nudging pain that’ll not cease

Descending upon your shoulders

No instructions for a quick release

Adapting and learning to live with it

Hoping soon the hurt will decrease

.

Love you sweetie

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Friday 26th January

.

There is so much pain and sorrow in the here and now; today

Because there was so much love and happiness in all our yesterdays

And tomorrow will bring tears and laughter with those memories

So grateful for those moments, and to recall them easily

You gave plenty to remember in the adventures that we shared

A precious son, a rich life, and simply loved beyond compare

.

My darling Angel

xxxxxx

Porthmeor Beach

The harbour

Smeaton’s Pier, with the Towans beyond

Thursday 25th January

.

I think

If you love somebody

With all your heart

You know

They’re still with you

You can hear their voice

Taste the tears

Smell their presence

Feel their touch

See the smiling face

Even after they’ve gone

They’ll be with you

Forever

.

Love you sweetheart

Precious Angel son

xxxxxx

Blue skies for a while over Porthmeor

Waves hitting the Island

Wednesday 24th January

.

You

.

You are there

You are here

.

In our past

In our now

In our future

.

In my dreams

In my heart

In my memories

In my thoughts

.

You lived

You breathed

You existed

You walked this earth

You will live on forever

.

My darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Tuesday 23rd January

.

Thoughts of wonder

Of what you would be

Who you would become

Continuing the family tree

Where you might go

Many places still to see

How you would flourish

But now, so far above me

.

My heavenly Angel

Darling son

xxxxxx

A brightening afternoon, looking towards the harbour

Monday 22nd January

.

Way up high

Upon brave wings you fly

Beyond the clouds

Far away from noisy crowds

To the stars

Way past Mercury and Mars

In sunset hues

The pinks mixed with blues

My darling Angel

Soars as high as he is able

.

Love you sweetie pie

xxxxxx

A little sunshine brightens a grey afternoon