Wednesday 31st August
Kisses in the sky
I know they’re from you
Sent with love
Criss crossing the blue
Your way of saying
I’m missing you too
When way up high
To heaven you flew
My Starman Angel
Love you forever I do
xxxxxx
Kisses in the sky on our walk down to the beach
Kisses in the sky, I know they’re from you
A new guardian angel looking over you
Lots of holidaymakers at high tide
Boats in the harbour
Tuesday 30th August
Adapt
Accept
But never over it….
Sometimes
There are
No words….
Grief
Will last
A lifetime….
Lives
Forever changed
That night….
I close my eyes
I know
You’re there….
Safely
Within
My heart….
That’s the way
It is
Coping….
Love you
My Starman
Angel in heaven….
xxxxxx
Pleasant at the beach this afternoon
Monday 29th August
You always liked to wake up early, have breakfast, then go outside in the fresh air.
In 2011 on this day, we were holidaying on Hilton Head Island, and you loved going down to the swimming pool before anyone else.
Wandering around, sitting on the sunloungers, or dipping your toes in the water.
You didn’t like crowds, so exploring whilst most of the guests were waking up suited you just fine.
Wandering around the empty pool
A quiet moment to dip toes in the water
Just outside the hotel grounds were a set of fountains that young children played in, trying to dodge the plumes of water.
If no one was around, you liked doing that as well, mostly keeping yourself dry, but occasionally laughing when you got drenched.
Fun by the fountains
Early mornings, quiet and peaceful
No worries, no noise, few people.
Sunrise brightens with new colour
So much to find, much to discover.
In those early hours of daybreak
A reflective walk you would take.
A new beginning every morning
Breathe in, to set spirits soaring.
Love you forever sweetheart
Missing our early morning walks.
xxxxxx
Too busy for you
Sunday 28th August
My darling Angel son
Been thinking of you today
Always on my mind
And forever in my heart.
The memories will never fade
Such a big personality
Full of fun and mischief
Always keeping us on our toes.
So, nighty night sweetheart
Lay your head upon the clouds
Way up there in heaven
I know you’re safe and sound.
Love you forever
xxxxxx
Grey and misty today
Saturday 27th August
Staying strong is what I do
Staying strong is what you see
But deep down, behind the mask
The pain is slowly consuming me.
Holding onto the good is what I do
Holding onto the good is what you see
With so many wonderful memories
My precious Angel is now flying free.
Never falling apart is what I do
Never falling apart is what you see
Even though my heart is broken
I know in heaven you’re pain-free.
Love you forever sweetheart
Even though we’re far apart.
Missing you like crazy
Precious Angel baby.
xxxxxx
Busy harbour this afternoon
Friday 26th August
I love you like I love you.
Loved you yesterday, love you still
Always have, always will.
I love you today, tomorrow, forever.
I love you to the moon and back,
Around the planets and all the stars.
I just love you, plain and simple.
I love you, Angel son.
xxxxxx
High tide in the harbour this morning
Thursday 25th August
In past times, towards the end of August, we would normally be on our way back north from Florida, stopping off at Hilton Head Island.
On this day, three years ago we spent the afternoon at Harbourtown; you, me and Dad. We played on the tree swing, sat in rocking chairs, climbed to the top of the lighthouse, ate ice cream, wandered through the shops and looked at all the boats in the marina.
The tree swing ~ a relaxing place in the shade
The top of the lighthouse has fabulous views
Flags and rocking chairs; reading among the gnarly trees
Would that we were all sitting on those chairs, right now, enjoying our ice creams. That would be just perfect.
If I close my eyes
You’re there with us
Smiling, chatting, laughing
Asking for money to buy another book
Walking, exploring, content
You’re there with us
If I close my eyes.
Love you forever, my Angel.
Sweetheart, precious son.
xxxxxx
Wednesday 24th August
I’ll never stop missing you
The pain will last forever
Sometimes close to the surface
Sometimes buried wherever.
Wish I could see your smiling face
Without closing my eyes and dreaming
Wish I could hear your happy voice
Without loading a video for screening.
So, I’ll never stop missing you
I’ll never stop loving you
And I’ll never, ever forget
Everything we’ve been through.
My dearest, darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
Tuesday 23rd August
Just for a little moment
I thought you were still here
Wandering across the beach
That you would just appear.
Just for a little moment
I thought I heard your laugh
But all I can do is smile
As I look at your photograph.
Just for a little moment
I thought I felt your touch
With arms wrapped around
Saying “I love you so much”.
Just for a little moment
I felt your presence close by
And I know you’re telling me
“I’m with you, please don’t cry”.
Missing you, my Angel.
xxxxxx
Very busy beach again
Monday 22nd August
In 2004 we made a detour from our usual holiday on the east coast of America. My brother and his wife had a fabulous apartment on Lake Shore Drive in Chicago, and we decided to spend a week in the windy city exploring a very different holiday destination.
Shopping, eating, drinking, museums, the L, parks, beaches, bridges, air shows: Chicago was amazing, and we had a busy, fun-filled week.
You on my brother’s yacht during the Air and Water Show
22.8.2004 Sliding along like a seal (with brown arms and a white body)
I remember we drove up to Gurnee, and spent the day at Six Flags Great America; you both enjoyed the large wooden rollercoaster called American Eagle, and the insanely twisting Vertical Velocity.
You and your brother exiting yet another thrilling rollercoaster ride
We also spent time at Oak Street Beach, people watching and relaxing, having a snack and a welcome cold drink.
You and I, having a cold drink at a beach café
We did have fun, didn’t we? Experiencing so many different excursions and adventures. You were both so lucky, and we were lucky enough too, to be able to share good times with you.
We tried hard to show you the world, meet new people, eat different foods, look at modern architecture, observe unfamiliar scenery, to place you amongst a different culture: all to expand your education and knowledge. And to have fun all the while.
And we did have fun, didn’t we?
And now, so, so many wonderful memories to look back upon. How I wish it were not so, that you were still here, able to keep on holidaying with us.
We miss you so much my darling.
Love you forever my precious Angel son.
xxxxxx
Low tide at the beach this afternoon
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 