Monday 29th February

Today seems grey.
You’re no longer here,
You’ve gone away.

Seeing the world
In shades of grey,
Life’s now unfurled.

No bright colours,
Just a flat grey,
Gone are all others.

Grey, draining contrast,
Monotone misery,
Sad, eyes downcast.

A grey isolation,
Wraps and enfolds,
Thoughts of desolation.

Neutral and bland,
Grey mist rolls in,
Over the quicksand.

Life’s not black and white.
A muddle of grey,
Seems about right.

Dismal and depressing,
This misty, grey fog,
All joy suppressing.

Looking for a change,
To brighten the day,
This grey to exchange.

The heavy, dull sky,
A ponderous grey.
Exhaling a sigh.

So, today is grey.
But it’ll be different,
I hope, some day.

I’m missing you today
My darling Angel son
Make the grey go away.

xxxxxxx

Looking out over the rampers this afternoon

Sunday 28th February

“We all take different paths in life,
but no matter where we go,
we take a little of each other everywhere.”

Everywhere we go, somehow you are with us. You come along for the ride, for the adventure, or even for the mundane.

Although you are not physically with us, you remain in my heart forever.
Your DNA is within me, and mine within you.
In my handbag are little white feathers that I have found, and tucked into a zipped pocket, wrapped up safely, is the Frankie Angel bear.
When we drive in Dad’s car, your seatbelt is done up, and it shows on the dashboard that there is a passenger in the back, where you used to sit. Where your spirit now is seated.
I carry your photograph in my bag too, a happy, smiling face.
And of course my phone is full of photo memories of us all.

So, wherever we now go, I’ll always have a little bit of you, with me.
Forever.

I do miss you, though.
I miss you so much.
Life is not the same.

xxxxxxx

Friday 26th February

“A smile happens in a flash
It’s memory lasts a lifetime.”

You had such a cheeky grin,
Easy to see when you were happy.
Laughter spread from within,
When something tickled your fancy.

A great big smile across your face,
Let us know you were having fun.
That we had chosen the right place,
Giving you the very best, bar none.

Missing you every single day,
Missing your happy personality.
Wishing you’d been able to stay,
To spread your saucy individuality.

Love you forever
Sweet Angel son.
xxxxxxx

August 2010 Harry Potter Land, Orlando

Wednesday 24th February

“Your body is away from me,
but there is a window open
from my heart to yours.”
                           Rumi

My heart will always hold yours,
Beating together as one.
Our love forever endures,
My darling, my precious son.

Although I might seem strong
Not one single day goes by
When memories come along
Bringing a tear to my eye.

Your face lit up with such joy
When told of future holidays.
Remaining forever a young boy
Joining in the fun, as always.

Now, you’re within my heart
I’ll hold you tightly for all time
Then we’ll never be apart
Beloved Angel son of mine.

Miss you.
Love you.

xxxxxxx

Monday 22nd February

“Love will always cost you grief.
And
Love is always worth the price.”

That my grief is so painful
Is purely because
I love you so much
And miss what was.

That my heart is breaking
Is purely because
I think of you often
And miss what was.

That my tears fall freely
Is purely because
I’m remembering you
And I miss what was.

To the moon and back, sweetheart.
Precious Angel son.

xxxxxx