Monthly Archives: October 2016

Big kisses


Monday 31st October

Big kisses

Up in the sky

Big kisses

Sent as you fly

Big kisses

From you on high

Big kisses

But I still cry

Big kisses

I still ask why

Big kisses

Angel lullaby.


Dearest, darling beloved son

Now you’ll be forever young.


First thing this morning, this was in the sky as we walked out of the front door xxx

Driving home, this afternoon, another kiss in the sky, from you xxx

Faint kisses above a quiet beach later on this afternoon xxx 




Sunday 30th October

“Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
I love you in the morning
and in the afternoon,
I love you in the evening
and underneath the moon,
Oh, skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.”


Looking along your bookshelves this morning, I noticed a book of songs that you loved: paperback, a little worn and creased, but so well-loved.

Growing up, you would enjoy listening to children’s nursery rhymes, and would wander around, earplugs in, holding on tight to your Sony Walkman, playing cassettes of songs and stories.

In fact whatever age, you loved listening in this way: whether it was pop songs, audio books, the radio or Disney soundtracks.

When we were in Australia, you came across the Wee Sing songs, and learnt all the words to Skidamarink, a nonsensical name, but catchy tune, and we would all sing it together on car journeys.

Listening to this again today took me back to those simple days, filled with love, laughter, songs and innocence.

I do love you; in the morning, afternoon, evening and underneath the moon. And I always will.

Beloved Angel son

Skidamarink adink adink

I love you


Beneath the clouds and golden leaves

Beautiful tree near your resting place

Sunny Porthmeor Beach this afternoon

Harbour high tide

Todays and tomorrows


Saturday 29th October

I used to know

My todays and tomorrows

The plans and adventures we would have

The excitement and happiness to come


I’d look forward to 

My todays and tomorrows

You were a big part of what we would do

Our family travels centred around you


I was happy with

My todays and tomorrows

A life free from worries and uncertainty

We laughed, we lived, loved each other


And now

My todays and tomorrows

Seem to be filled with a big, empty void

My heart aches for the missing piece


You are there

In all my yesterdays

And I’ll hold your memories close

Taking them forward with me

To new, but different

Todays and tomorrows.


Love you yesterday, today and tomorrow

Always have

Always will

Dearest darling Angel son.


A sunny October afternoon

Cooler in the harbour



Friday 28th October

You are forever by my side

You are forever on my mind

You are forever with my spirit

You are forever in my thoughts

You are forever within my heart

You are forever part of my dreams

You are forever the story of my life

You are forever my Angel

You are my forever


And forever I will love you

Dearest Angel son


Our Charity Event


Thursday 27th October
An update on the charity event that we held just over a couple of weeks ago…….£4000 raised, to be shared equally between our four chosen charities:

* Checkemlads ~ Testicular Cancer (in memory of you, my darling boy)

* Meningitis Now

* The Brain Tumour Charity

* Bowel Cancer

Such an awesome response from the local community, businesses, family and friends.


We miss you so much my darling.

The pain never goes away.

It’s been eighty five weeks

Since you breathed your last breath.

Every morning I wake up

Knowing you’re not there.

And it hurts.


Beautiful October


Wednesday 26th October

A beautiful October, so blue, so still

You would have loved a day like today.


Calm and reflective, like clouds on the sea

Wandering along in your own quiet way.


Watching crowds enjoying the sunshine

Imagine you smiling as they laugh and play.


I know you are there, my Angel son

Walking beside me, is where you’ll stay.


Love you forever

Missing you always


Such a pretty afternoon to play on the slipway

Children having fun padding

The water in the harbour was so still

Perfect for paddleboarding

So blue, so still



Monday 24th October

Walking along the harbour front

Grey, dark clouds threaten overhead.

Coats pulled tightly with faces pinched

The heavy rain puddles where we tread.

“Don’t moan: we need water to survive”

So many times, you would have said.

Arriving home, completely sopping wet

You’d strip off, dive under the bedspread.

But now you’re there, behind the clouds

Wishing you were here with us, instead.


Sweetheart Angel son

Flying high beyond the rainbows

Love you forever


The Stennack River turning the waves brown with run-off from the fields

Just not right


Sunday 23rd October

That you’re not here is just not right

You had so much more to give

The evening when your soul took flight

Thought you had more years to live.


I know you’ve found the perfect peace

Now in heaven upon clouds you lay

And from your pain you have release

But I miss you so every single day.


My brave little soldier

Love you forever

Never becoming older

Angel son forever.


Half term holidaymakers, surfers and families on Porthmeor Beach

Grey skies over the harbour; rain is not far away