Saturday 30th July
  

It was a very busy day at the beach today. So many holidaymakers had pitched their tents on the sand, sitting back catching the rays, hiring surfboards, or throwing frisbees.

You were not one for lazing around, relaxing or sunbathing; you were always on the go, walking, reading, playing in the surf.

I’m not sure you would have enjoyed the beach today; far too many people and far too noisy.

Three years ago today we were in North Myrtle Beach, the sea was 30℃ and the air temperature 35℃. (I know this, as Facebook reminded me). We had spent a couple hours on the beach, early morning, before it became oppressively hot. By midday you had become bored anyway, and so it was time to move off, find somewhere with air-conditioning, and have some lunch and a cold drink.

Our shaded spot, beneath a parasol (three years ago NMB)

The beautiful ocean

Dad, you, and me. North Myrtle Beach, 30.7.13

We do miss you so much, and remember the many years we spent going on holiday to America. Starting off in South Carolina, then moving south to Florida, so you could enjoy the theme parks.

Thinking of you today, as always.

Missing you every day.

Loving you forever.

Sweetheart Angel son.

xxxxxx

So very busy at the beach today

Not a lot of space left

Bright, blue sky today

Tonight’s sunset at 9:15pm

Friday 29th July
  

Looking up towards the sky

Seeing the clouds trailing by

Blinking tears from my eye

And forever asking why.

It’s so hard, but I will try

To smile more, not to cry

Are you up there flying by?

Our Angel Starman up on high.

xxxxxx

Wispy clouds

Our Starman Angel

Holding hands

Thursday 28th July

Everything changed

The day you went to heaven.

The fragility of life

Is much more acute.

That we must live

Like there’s no tomorrow

Is undeniable.

Living life to the full

But taking your memory

Everywhere we go.

xxxxxx

Another busy day at the beach

Through the flowers, to the sea, having fun in the surf

Tuesday 26th July

I miss your smiling, little face

Spreading fun all over the place.

Such a wonderfully, cheeky grin

True happiness comes from within.

From a contented young chap

Who loved sitting on my lap.

To an innocent young man

Laughing as much as he can.

My sweetheart Angel baby

Now in heaven, playing safely.

xxxxxx

Grey and muggy on the beach ~ lots of tents for shelter

Monday 25th July

I wish you were still here

Then I could hold you tight

I wouldn’t be sad anymore

Just to hear your voice

The sound of your laughter

Everything would be as it should

I still cry, I still hurt so much

I miss you every single moment

I stay awake thinking about you

I speak your name often

But you never, ever answer me

I do wonder what you’d be like today

I try to hold onto the love, not the loss

But every day I wish you were still here

My precious Angel son.

xxxxxx

Sunday 24th July

500 long and lonely days without you

Without hearing your voice and laughter

Without seeing your face and smile

No more setting out your clothes

Putting toothpaste on your toothbrush

Or having dinner ready at six o’clock

No more planning holidays with you

No more childish fun and adventures

Travelling the world with you, no longer

And yet, it just seems only yesterday

When you fell asleep, went to heaven

That night is relived, over and over again

500 long and lonely days without you

Many wonderful memories left behind

Such a precious and special life you had

Love you forever

Sweetheart Angel son

xxxxxx

Brightening up in the harbour, after early rain

Saturday 23rd July

Every day I try to uncover a memory of you

To share with the rest of the world,

To keep you alive in my heart,

To let you know you’ll not be forgotten.

I’ll keep talking about you, writing about you.

Finding your photographs and smiling,

Because you existed, were part of our lives, 

From a baby, toddler, child, teenager to a young man.

I want you to walk with us; silently, unseen,

But there beside us, always, in spirit,

Because that is where you belong.

My precious Angel son.

xxxxxx

A grey, but muggy day at the beach

Sammy seal in the harbour tonight

Friday 22nd July

Although I have a smile on my face

I’m really not in a happy place.

Look more closely and you may see

This person before you isn’t me.

A piece of my heart’s gone missing

So I spend all my days just wishing,

That you are at peace, flying high

Shining so brightly up in the sky.

Dearest Angel Starman of mine

I’ll love you till the end of time.

xxxxxx