Month Nine


Tuesday 23rd September

Three quarters of the way through the clinical drugs trial and it’s time to run between two hospitals and many different departments. Dermatology, bloods and obs, CT scan, ECG followed by an Echo, and finally the oncologist.

All starts well, but when I sit down with my trials nurse and chat, I start to feel really anxious and tearful. My blood pressure is silly-high. Scanxiety is setting in. For some reason I am beginning to dread the scan ~ or is it the results that I’m worried about. Irrational fears and thoughts are sending my mind spinning. Deep breaths, deep breaths. Hold it together.

The scan itself was quite routine and I’m so pleased when its all over. Just a week to wait for those all important findings.

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