Category Archives: Grief

By the moon

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Saturday 20th October

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Warms the heart

And stirs the soul

A smile from you

Would make me whole

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To hear your voice

Gentle laughter

If only it was

Happy ever after

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My darling boy

We miss you loads

You’re in heaven

Walking different roads

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Precious Angel

Gone too soon

I see your star

Lit up by the moon

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xxxxxx

From hearts so true

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Friday 19th October

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Fly high

Fly free

Wish you could

Fly back to me

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Twinkling star

Twinkling bright

Is that you

Lighting up the night?

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Wish, wish

I wish for you

To feel the love

From hearts so true

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Love you so much

Missing you sweetheart

Beloved Angel son

We’re never apart

xxxxxx

Still and grey today

A soft swell rolling in to shore

A grey harbour afternoon

One day at a time

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Thursday 18th October

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One day at a time

One step at a time

One breath at a time

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Upside down

Inside out

Back to front

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Falling apart

Spinning around

Spiralling under

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Realisation

Perseverance

Existence

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No choice

No alternative

No option

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Small steps

Keeping on

Go forward

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With love

With memories

With thankfulness

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My boy

My son

My Angel

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xxxxxx

Porthmeor Beach looking East

Straight ahead

And towards the West

Harbour sunshine

A few sunbathing on the beach

Melt my heart

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Wednesday 17th October

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Tears of love

Tears of joy

Tears of mine

For my little boy

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A heavy sigh

A teardrop falls

But happy times

Memory recalls

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Sweet Angel son

Though we’re apart

A smile from you

Would melt my heart

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xxxxxx

A good swell at Porthmeor Beach

Half term has begun for some parts of the country

Outgoing tide in the harbour

In the dark

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Tuesday 16th October

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There in the dark

The deepest, blackest night

The overpowering nothingness

Is where your star shines bright

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Over here in the dark

In shadowy underworld of despair

The intense emptiness

Is where you’re walking on air

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Right now, in the dark

With this excruciating pain

Crushing down all around

There’s hope I’ll see you again

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My precious boy

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Always wonder

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Monday 15th October

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I will always wonder

How you would’ve grown old

Now lives ripped asunder

No more stories to be told

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The young man you’d become

Still had plans to fulfil

Fun and games in the sun

Happy families still

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So where did it all go wrong?

Cancer is an evil monster

Now to heaven you’ve gone

The disease you didn’t conquer

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Thinking of you

Missing you

Loving you

Forever and always

Treasured Angel son

xxxxxx

Dad’s birthday

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Sunday 14th October

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Dad’s birthday

Long chat with your brother

All is good in Spain

Video call, waving to each other

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We went for a walk

Across the cliffs at Gwithian

The sun had come out

Feeling the warmth on your skin

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Really wish you were here

To wish dad Happy Birthday

We miss you immensely

So much more than words can say

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Love you poppet

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Looking down on St. Ives

Big clouds over Hayle estuary

Godrevy Lighthouse

Looking across the bay to St. Ives

Gwithian sands

I am

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Saturday 13th October

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I am

But I am not

I breathe

Yet I am suffocating

I see

But I’m blinded

I walk

Yet I’m paralysed

I dream

But they’re nightmares

I keep going

Yet I retreat

I smile

But I wear a mask

I am

Yet I am not

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Love you forever

Forget you never

Always together

Forever and ever

Sweetheart Angel son

xxxxxx

A grey drive along the harbour this afternoon

Last forever

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Thursday 11th October

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My love for you will last forever

Yet the heartache will never end

But you’ll always be with me

As many kisses to heaven I send

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Love you poppet

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Porthmeor Beach after very heavy rain

Skies clearing over the harbour

A beautiful tortoiseshell butterfly catching some warmth from the sun