Tuesday 26th December
Thoughts of you are in my heart
And running through my head
Even when I’m not really thinking
You’re still there, with much unsaid
You will always be a big part of me
Lying upon a cloud for your Angel bed
My sweetest Angel son
xxxxxx
Monday 25th December
Someone is missing from the Christmas table
We’d bring you back if we were able
It’s the third festive season without you
Since you gained your wings, and flew
So once again there’s an empty chair
Our Christmas dinner you cannot share
It’s just hard to rejoice in festive cheer
When someone you love isn’t here
All they’ll receive is a wreath of flowers
Really wish I had some magic powers
To bring you back from heavenly slumber
So we could all marvel at the wonder
Of a Christmastime filled with joy
My dearest, darling, sweet Angel boy
xxxxxx
Me…..
Frank and his tomato soup
Nan at Christmas
Dad and your brother
Sunday 24th December
It’s Christmas Eve
My darling boy
Those eyes lit up
With wonder and joy
It’s the third one
Without you here
And I’m missing you
Wish you were near
I’ll shed a few tears
Rememb’ring the fun
Of past Christmas’s
Dearest Angel son
xxxxxx
A Christmas gift from your Auntie xx
Kisses in the sky as we drive up to Bristol to collect your brother ~ home for Christmas xx
Saturday 23rd December
This Christmastime
Thoughts of you are on my mind
But that’s really not surprising
You were always gentle and kind
This Christmastime
We’re going to miss you very much
But you’ll be forever in our hearts
With your cheeky smile, tender touch
This Christmastime
In heaven, sweet Angel of mine
Hope you’re having fun up there
On a bright star, twinkle and shine
xxxxxx
Friday 22nd December
From a dear old lady
An unexpected gift
Such a sweet gesture
To make one’s spirit lift
A Santa on a stick
Festive decoration
Just for you my darling
Really sweet donation
Love you forever
My treasured Angel son
xxxxxx
Whilst visiting you, this afternoon, a dear old lady offered us this Santa, for you
Thursday 21st December
Never stop thinking about you
Missing you so much, that is true
Gaining those angel wings, you flew
Way up high, in the beautiful blue
Loving you forever, that’s all I can do
Precious Angel son
xxxxxx
Wednesday 20th December
Family gatherings,
And celebrations
Christmas trees
And decorations
Much festive cheer
And happy holidays
Choirs carolling
And singing praise
Thinking of you
At Christmastime
Remembered with
A love sublime
Heart skips a beat
Memories triggered
Looking to heaven
Kisses delivered
Darling Angel son
xxxxxx
Tuesday 19th December
Your perfect star twinkles in heaven
So shine on brightly my Angel son
Safe in our hearts is where you are
Nothing has ended, it’s only begun
Missed so much at this time of year
Precious sweetheart, beloved one
xxxxxx
A grey looking Porthmeor Beach
Cobbled Fore Street looking pretty at dusk
Monday 18th December
On the last visit to my oncologist, following a CT scan, a small ‘gnurgly’ was seen on my spleen. It had been mentioned a couple of previous times to no consequence, but now the radiographer’s report suggested further investigation was warranted. So, no food since last night, and only water this morning.
Upon arrival at the unit, just after 1:00pm, form filling was followed by blood sugar testing, which was fine. The technician then went to collect the radioactive trace injection. He returned carrying what looked like an extremely heavy tool box. I thought, ‘Wow, that must be a massive injection!’, but it was merely a huge lead-lined box to protect from the radiation. So then the liquid was pushed into my veins, the technician declared me radioactive ☢️☠️🤢☠️☢️ and I had to wait an hour for the liquid to reach all parts of my body……
The scan itself was fine: the first part was head to knees, taking about fifty minutes, back and forth, stop and start, don’t move…..Then I had to turn around for the second part: knees to toes, which only took twenty minutes. Time to go, and after over three hours in the unit, I was ready. It was now dark outside, the whole afternoon had disappeared through a tunnel…..And now I was starving and very thirsty.
A quick bite to eat and a cappuccino, then a drive home in the dark, whereupon I am now drinking copious amounts of water to flush out the radioactive trace. Apparently I must not go near pregnant women or young children for twenty four hours….
Glowing all the wayyyyyy………
Thinking of you my sweetheart, as always.
Beloved Angel son
xxxxxx
Homeward bound, after sunset
Lights of the cars mimicking how I feel…..
And, we came to say hello again
Your solar snowflake looked lovely
Sunday 17th December
Love you forever
My little fella
So kind and clever
Forget you never
I did endeavour
Keep us together
Such a sweet treasure
Who brought us pleasure
Precious Angel son
xxxxxx
My little fella. Universal Studios
My little fella. SeaWorld
My little fella. Robbie’s, Islamorada
My little fella. Hawaiian Luau, SeaWorld
My little fella. Brother’s 24th birthday
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 