Thursday 18th October
.
One day at a time
One step at a time
One breath at a time
.
Upside down
Inside out
Back to front
.
Falling apart
Spinning around
Spiralling under
.
Realisation
Perseverance
Existence
.
No choice
No alternative
No option
.
Small steps
Keeping on
Go forward
.
With love
With memories
With thankfulness
.
My boy
My son
My Angel
.
xxxxxx
Porthmeor Beach looking East
Straight ahead
And towards the West
Harbour sunshine
A few sunbathing on the beach
Wednesday 17th October
.
Tears of love
Tears of joy
Tears of mine
For my little boy
.
A heavy sigh
A teardrop falls
But happy times
Memory recalls
.
Sweet Angel son
Though we’re apart
A smile from you
Would melt my heart
.
xxxxxx
A good swell at Porthmeor Beach
Half term has begun for some parts of the country
Outgoing tide in the harbour
Tuesday 16th October
.
There in the dark
The deepest, blackest night
The overpowering nothingness
Is where your star shines bright
.
Over here in the dark
In shadowy underworld of despair
The intense emptiness
Is where you’re walking on air
.
Right now, in the dark
With this excruciating pain
Crushing down all around
There’s hope I’ll see you again
.
My precious boy
Darling Angel son
xxxxxx
Monday 15th October
.
I will always wonder
How you would’ve grown old
Now lives ripped asunder
No more stories to be told
.
The young man you’d become
Still had plans to fulfil
Fun and games in the sun
Happy families still
.
So where did it all go wrong?
Cancer is an evil monster
Now to heaven you’ve gone
The disease you didn’t conquer
.
Thinking of you
Missing you
Loving you
Forever and always
Treasured Angel son
xxxxxx
Sunday 14th October
.
Dad’s birthday
Long chat with your brother
All is good in Spain
Video call, waving to each other
.
We went for a walk
Across the cliffs at Gwithian
The sun had come out
Feeling the warmth on your skin
.
Really wish you were here
To wish dad Happy Birthday
We miss you immensely
So much more than words can say
.
Love you poppet
Darling Angel son
xxxxxx
Looking down on St. Ives
Big clouds over Hayle estuary
Godrevy Lighthouse
Looking across the bay to St. Ives
Gwithian sands
Saturday 13th October
.
I am
But I am not
I breathe
Yet I am suffocating
I see
But I’m blinded
I walk
Yet I’m paralysed
I dream
But they’re nightmares
I keep going
Yet I retreat
I smile
But I wear a mask
I am
Yet I am not
.
Love you forever
Forget you never
Always together
Forever and ever
Sweetheart Angel son
xxxxxx
A grey drive along the harbour this afternoon
Friday 12th October
.
The pain of the missing
Is an overwhelming
Reminder of
The joy of the loving
.
Love you sweetie
Forever in my heart
Precious Angel son
xxxxxx
Thursday 11th October
.
My love for you will last forever
Yet the heartache will never end
But you’ll always be with me
As many kisses to heaven I send
.
Love you poppet
Darling Angel son
xxxxxx
Porthmeor Beach after very heavy rain
Skies clearing over the harbour
A beautiful tortoiseshell butterfly catching some warmth from the sun
Wednesday 10th October
.
Always looking up to the sky
Trying to see your face in the clouds
Or searching for you in the stars
As the sun sets, and the night enshrouds
.
My heavenly Angel son
My precious starman soaring so high
I hope you’re smiling and happy
As I look up again and sigh
.
Love you sweetie
Missing you
Beloved Angel son
xxxxxx
Lovely and warm in the harbour this afternoon
Enjoying the sunshine
Almost a heart-shaped, blue break in the clouds at 6:00pm tonight
A small prism of a rainbow to the left of the Island
Catching the last rays of the sun at high tide
High tide waves breaking onto Wharf Road
Pretty pink clouds above the pier
Tuesday 9th October
.
A quiet sadness
A sad quietness
.
A life of memories
A memory of life
.
A painful sorrow
A sorrowful pain
.
A tearful moment
A moment full of tears
.
Forever in my heart
In my heart forever
My darling Angel son
xxxxxx
Porthmeor Beach
Man’s Head
Harbour at low tide
Three arches in the pier
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 