Tuesday 27th October

You really are always on my mind,
and will remain forever in my heart.

We freshened up your flowers today, to make sure you have a fitting tribute and colourful display at your resting place
It was lightly drizzling, a few more golden brown leaves were falling, and the breeze was pushing along the grey clouds overhead.

We miss you so much my darling.

Are we perpetuating our sorrow by visiting you every single day?
Knowing where you now are, unable to change anything, our lives without you have been altered inexorably.
Right now, it seems the only way to find comfort. Our daily pilgrimage to your graveside feels as if it’s the right thing to do, to come and talk with you, to tend the flowers, to brush away the fallen leaves.

We miss you so much my darling.

I still talk to you, and about you, when I’m away from the cemetery. I speak to you when I’m in your bedroom, when I look at your photographs, when something, anything comes to mind, that triggers a memory of you.

We miss you so much my darling.

On this day in 2008, we were on a half-term break with my sister and her daughter, in Bath. You loved all the shops and street entertainers, and we all enjoyed a boat trip down the river Avon.
I wonder where we would have travelled to, this year?

We miss you so much my darling.

Always on my mind.
Forever in my heart.

Love you lots.
Missing you like crazy.
Beloved Angel son.
xxxxx