Saturday 3rd December
  

CBOP BEP cytotoxic chemotherapy.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

On this day, two years ago, you began the treatment that would ultimately take you from us.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

Radical, aggressive chemotherapy for poor prognosis germ cell tumours.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

You took everything in your stride; no moaning, whining or arguing.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

A week at a time in hospital, with dad and I sharing overnights to stay with you.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

Ninety nine days you endured.

We told you the treatment would make you better.

Why, why, why?

You should still be here.

Better.

Alive.

With us.

Planning for the holidays.

I miss you so very much.

Love you my darling Angel.

xxxxxx

Friday 2nd December
   

Simply missing you

Just out of the blue

To heaven you flew

Nothing I can do

How will I get through?

Because no one knew

Time on earth was through

To my Angel, adieu

With a love so true

  

xxxxxx

 

Thursday 1st December
  

December holidays

And festive fun

Becoming excited

Getting things done.

  

Trees in windows

Lights in the shops

Santa and reindeer

Flying over rooftops.

  

Laughter and smiles

Childlike elation

Eyes wide with wonder

Full of fascination.

  

You loved this season

The crisp time of year

But I’m left wishing

That you were still here.

  

My December sweetheart

On high you soar

With Angel wings 

Love you forevermore.

  

It’s Thursday again

Ninety long weeks

I really do wish

I could kiss those cheeks.

   

xxxxxx

Wednesday 30th November
   

Fly high sweet Angel

Fly free my darling

Way above the clouds

Where stars are sparkling.

You’re never alone

With brave wings you fly

Over the rainbow

In heaven you lie.

Missing you so much

Loving you forever

My darling Angel

Forgetting you, never.

xxxxxx

Tuesday 29th November
  

Hiding my secret sorrow

Has become a little easier

I suppose.

Hiding the pain in my heart

Has become a little easier

I suppose.

Stopping the tears from falling

Has become a little easier

I suppose.

Blocking the haunting nightmares

Has become a little easier

I suppose.

Looking at your sweet smile

Has always been easy

I know.

Speaking about you with pride

Has always been easy

I know.

Thinking about you daily

Has always been easy

I know.

Sharing my love for you

Has always been easy

I know.

  

Forever a part of me

In my heart and soul

Dearest darling son

xxxxxx

Monday 28th November
  

Did I tell you enough that I love you?

Did I hold you tight enough for you to know?

Did I mention enough that you meant so much?

I do really, really hope so.

  

My precious sweet Angel

Treasured son

xxxxxx

Sunday 27th November
  

You should be here

But you’re not.

It shouldn’t have happened

But it did.

I miss you every day

Won’t change.

I love you so much

Always will.

A beautiful young man

My Angel son.

  

xxxxxx

Saturday 26th November
  

I will love you

Forever and always

I’ll be with you

Everywhere

Here in my heart

Every single day

I will love you

Always and forever.

  

Sweet dreams

Darling Angel son

Forever and always

xxxxxx

Friday 25th November
  

My sweet little darling

A real cheeky chappie

You brightened all our days

Always smiling and happy.

You’ve left behind a big space

Unbelievably empty

All’s quiet, life’s standing still

Simply missing you plenty.

  

Forever and always, sweetheart

Moon and back, my Angel

xxxxxx

Thursday 24th November
  

I try to look beyond

Those dark, grey clouds

Finding warm sunshine

Bringing out the crowds.

  

Dreams take me above

Clouds, ominous and dark

Thinking we’re together

And playing in the park.

  

Searching for little signs

As the clouds fill the sky

Shapes of you my darling

On Angel wings you fly.

  

Clouds have silver linings

I have memories of you

Although that’s all I have

My love for you stays true.

  

Beyond those dark clouds

Lies a sky so blue

A rainbow of colours

Bringing me to you.

  

So lay your head gently

On a soft white pillow

Those clouds enfold you

Floating by and billow.

  

Love you forever and always

Treasured Angel son.

xxxxxx