Thursday 14th January
“and I will see you
someday again in
the clouds.”
These were the clouds and blue skies over the harbour this afternoon.
A pretty day, with chilly, biting winds.
Could you see me looking up, for you?
Were you looking down, for me?
I miss you so very much.
I really wish you were here.
Love you Angel.
Dearest son.
xxxx
Wednesday 13th January
Remember I love you.
I love you forever.
I’ll always love you.
Forget you, never.
Memories I’ll cherish.
Cherish them forever.
Memories won’t fade.
Recall them whenever.
Your heartbeat is safe.
Safe in my heart.
I feel my heart beating.
We’re never apart.
xxxxx
Tuesday 12th January
Ten months ago you passed away.
And I think of you every single day.
We tried so hard to make you stay.
But we know we’ll see you someday.
With Angel wings you flew up high.
I can’t believe it, I don’t know why.
Sometimes I just sit here and cry.
I love you my darling, sweetie pie.
xxxxx
David Bowie photographed by Annie Leibovitz.
The cover of Aladdin Sane.
David Bowie photographed by Helmut Newton. Lyrics from Lazarus.
Monday 11th January
David Bowie……..
1947 – 2016
Ashes to ashes, dust to stardust.
Heaven’s gained a starman.
Planet earth is blue
And there’s nothing I can do.
This serious moonlight.
Look up here, I’m in heaven.
Like the dolphins, like dolphins can swim.
And the stars look very different today.
Press your space face close to mine, love.
I absolutely love you.
Lyrics by David Bowie
And you, my little man,
Are my very own starman.
Flying high, up in the sky,
Love you, my sweetie pie.
Angel son.
Forever young.
Love you always.
xxxxx
Sunday 10th January
Another sunset without you.
Another day without you here.
Another sunrise without you.
Another month, a new year.
Another long night without you.
Another morning, no wakeup call.
Another season without you.
Another with memories to recall.
I miss you so much.
Love you forever.
xxxxx
Saturday 9th January
I know the sun
Will come out tomorrow,
But without you,
It will never shine
As bright again.
And that’s the way
It seems to me.
The sky has lost
It’s glow, it’s brightness
The shine has gone.
I miss you.
More than I did yesterday,
But not as much
As I’ll miss you tomorrow.
Emptiness surrounds me.
Your smile and laughter
Lit up our lives.
Intense and demanding.
But never-ending
Surprises and joy.
And I know
The sun won’t shine
As bright again.
It’s warmth is there
The sparkle is gone.
Love you so very much.
Darling Angel son.
xxxxx
Friday 8th January
There will never be a day
When I won’t think of you.
Whatever I do, wherever I go
You are always on my mind.
The pain is not going away
I just miss you constantly.
I will remember your smile
To ease the sorrow I feel.
Love you forever sweetie pie.
Angel son, flying so high.
xxxxx
The beach this afternoon
Thursday 7th January
“I am
constantly
aware
of your
absence”
Yes, I can easily force a little smile
But inside my heart is surely broken.
Every single day I see the reminders
Of your life; the memories left behind.
I’m constantly aware of your absence
And I can sense you, but not see you.
Days turn into weeks and months
I miss you more than miss you less.
I am not the same person that I was
Hidden sorrow is now my companion.
Another Thursday comes round again
The day you left this earth for heaven.
And there is nothing I can do about it
Except remember all those good times.
And we did have such fun together
Laughs and merriment and adventures.
We love you so very much sweetheart
And we’ll miss you forever and ever.
xxxxx
Wednesday 6th January
Three hundred days without you.
So, how am I getting through this?
Don’t know, I really haven’t a clue
I’m teetering on the edge of the abyss
Our love for you will never ever falter.
The pain of your passing, always there.
Nothing will change or is going to alter.
As we quietly whisper a silent prayer
Three hundred days without you.
We didn’t know it was your time,
As up to heaven you peacefully flew.
Our darling boy, sweet child of mine.
Love you always.
Miss you constantly.
Sleep tight darling.
xxxx
Tuesday 5th January
“Each time we
embrace a memory,
we meet again
with those we
love ….. for
the heart
never
forgets.”
Well, that must mean
I’m always meeting you.
For I embrace a memory
Every waking moment.
You are there in my heart
In my sleepy dreams too.
You are there in my heart.
And my heart will never forget.
I love you baby.
I always will.
But I miss you.
Miss you so much.
So very much.
Beloved Angel son
xxx xxx
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 