Tuesday 16th October

.

There in the dark

The deepest, blackest night

The overpowering nothingness

Is where your star shines bright

.

Over here in the dark

In shadowy underworld of despair

The intense emptiness

Is where you’re walking on air

.

Right now, in the dark

With this excruciating pain

Crushing down all around

There’s hope I’ll see you again

.

My precious boy

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Monday 15th October

.

I will always wonder

How you would’ve grown old

Now lives ripped asunder

No more stories to be told

.

The young man you’d become

Still had plans to fulfil

Fun and games in the sun

Happy families still

.

So where did it all go wrong?

Cancer is an evil monster

Now to heaven you’ve gone

The disease you didn’t conquer

.

Thinking of you

Missing you

Loving you

Forever and always

Treasured Angel son

xxxxxx

Sunday 14th October

.

Dad’s birthday

Long chat with your brother

All is good in Spain

Video call, waving to each other

.

We went for a walk

Across the cliffs at Gwithian

The sun had come out

Feeling the warmth on your skin

.

Really wish you were here

To wish dad Happy Birthday

We miss you immensely

So much more than words can say

.

Love you poppet

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Saturday 13th October

.

I am

But I am not

I breathe

Yet I am suffocating

I see

But I’m blinded

I walk

Yet I’m paralysed

I dream

But they’re nightmares

I keep going

Yet I retreat

I smile

But I wear a mask

I am

Yet I am not

.

Love you forever

Forget you never

Always together

Forever and ever

Sweetheart Angel son

xxxxxx

Friday 12th October

.

The pain of the missing

Is an overwhelming

Reminder of

The joy of the loving

.

Love you sweetie

Forever in my heart

Precious Angel son

xxxxxx

Thursday 11th October

.

My love for you will last forever

Yet the heartache will never end

But you’ll always be with me

As many kisses to heaven I send

.

Love you poppet

Darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Wednesday 10th October

.

Always looking up to the sky

Trying to see your face in the clouds

Or searching for you in the stars

As the sun sets, and the night enshrouds

.

My heavenly Angel son

My precious starman soaring so high

I hope you’re smiling and happy

As I look up again and sigh

.

Love you sweetie

Missing you

Beloved Angel son

xxxxxx

Tuesday 9th October

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A quiet sadness

A sad quietness

.

A life of memories

A memory of life

.

A painful sorrow

A sorrowful pain

.

A tearful moment

A moment full of tears

.

Forever in my heart

In my heart forever

My darling Angel son

xxxxxx

Monday 8th October

.

Touching so many lives

Your memories do remain

In darkness and in light

Until we see you again

.

You’ll never really leave us

Even though you’ve gone

A reminder of what was

Is your spirit living on

.

Loved and remembered forever

Precious Angel son

xxxxxx

Sunday 7th October

.

Blue skies and feeling warm

In the early autumn sun

Surfers playing in the waves

Children on the sand having fun

.

Lifeguards are still on duty

The season’s work near done

You loved our walks out here

Fresh air, and off you’d run

.

Loving the wide open spaces

Pink cheeks for everyone

Yet now you fly above us

Your earthly life is done

.

Missing you

My darling beach boy

Love you

Angel full of joy

xxxxxx