Saturday 10th October

“Not a day goes by
that I don’t think of you
and smile.
Or cry.
Or both.”

Such is our life now that we really are on a rollercoaster of emotions.
One moment feeling light and just about ok.
And then, almost at once a heavy weight of sorrow comes crashing towards you, almost knocking you sideways.

Happy, sad.
Smiling, crying.
Coping, failing.
Calm, confusion.

It doesn’t take but a minute to switch between the two opposing states of emotions.

The sweet sadness of your memory elicits both smiles and tears at the same time.

And it is so hard to face the world each new day, without you, knowing that at any moment the mask might slip, and everything you’ve been holding together suddenly crumbles and spills all over the floor.

Missing you tremendously.
Thinking of you never-endingly.
Loving you immensely.
Wishing for your presence constantly.

Sending you kisses and cuddles.
Dearest Angel son xxxx