Saturday 3rd December
CBOP BEP cytotoxic chemotherapy.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
On this day, two years ago, you began the treatment that would ultimately take you from us.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
Radical, aggressive chemotherapy for poor prognosis germ cell tumours.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
You took everything in your stride; no moaning, whining or arguing.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
A week at a time in hospital, with dad and I sharing overnights to stay with you.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
Ninety nine days you endured.
We told you the treatment would make you better.
Why, why, why?
You should still be here.
Better.
Alive.
With us.
Planning for the holidays.
I miss you so very much.
Love you my darling Angel.
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The Hickman line went in without problems
Dad feeding you grapes
Saline going in, prior to the chemotherapy. You would sit for hours, looking at the internet, reading about your favourite programmes and cartoons
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 
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I send you prayers and hugs.
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Thank you.
Very much appreciate your caring words.
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I am so very sorry-I can not imagine what heartbreak you have had-This post makes the journey so much more real. Please know I will think of you and your son during the Christmas season. I will remember.
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Thank you for your understanding thoughts.
Finding it difficult at the moment.
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Love to you! You did what you believed was best at the time. Please forgive yourselves.
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Thank you for your kindness.
Much appreciated.
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You’re welcome. I hope you give yourself this gift of forgiveness. I’m positive he wouldn’t want to see you suffering so needlessly. I also believe that once “on the other side,” our work is as angels. So he’s now able to do more to help others. ❤️
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Thank you.
I would like to think that what you have written is so true.
My son always wanted to be an Angel, and now he is.
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He was an angel even when he was here. Now he’s able to be limitless 🙂
Peaceful and loving prayers to you and your family. ❤️️
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Most kind of you.
Thank you.
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May God continue to bring healing to your hearts.
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Thank you for your caring words.
Most kind.
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I pray for you always and i hope with the time your sorrows will subside
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Thank you so very much.
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Sending so much love your way. x
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Most kind, thank you.
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Love is so complicated when you have to face life changing decisions. I will pray for you to be able to let go of any guilt that you might carry! Just know that his soul was ready to leave and you did your best to help his human side! God bless you!
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Thank you.
Such lovely sentiments ~ his soul was ready, and I certainly did my utmost to help his living being ~ but to no avail ~ I lost him.
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I’m so very sorry for your pain. I hadn’t been aware. My heart goes out to you.
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Thank you so much for your support and understanding.
Appreciated.
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