Wednesday 10th May
Such a sweet heart
And a gentle soul
Darling Angel son
With you, we were whole.
Such a complex mind
And a carefree life
Darling Angel son
Without you, there’s strife.
xxxxxx
Tuesday 9th May
Alarm goes at o-crack sparrow. I’m up early for my month 42 check-ups at two hospitals in Exeter. First appointment is with the dermatologist at 10:45am ~ thorough skin check of all my various moles, solar lentigo, actinic keratosis, seborrheic keratoses, dysplastic nevus and checking of scars from various surgeries to remove a malignant melanoma and lymph nodes, skin graft, biopsies and a basal cell. All seems ok, apart from some sun damage at the top of my forehead, for which I am given some cream: three days worth, that will take the top layer of skin off, repairing the damage.
My next stop is with my trials nurse ~ I am on the CombiAd trial, for the adjuvant treatment of Stage 3 Metastatic Malignant Melanoma. Bloods, weight, temperature, blood pressure and pulse, all duly taken and noted.
Then it’s on to the delightful CT scan with contrast, of the thorax, abdomen and pelvis.
My final stop is with my oncologist, who can inform me, tentatively, that he sees nothing suspicious on the scan, but I have to wait for the official radiographer’s report, which will take about ten days.
However, I can finally leave, about 5:00pm, knowing that all seems well ~ with a massive sigh of relief. Breathe………..
So, that’s it for another six months.
Wishing you were here sweetheart, to share with me. Wishing you had had good news, and were looked after as well as I am being cared for.
Wishing……
If only…….
In hindsight……..
Why……..
Miss you more than ever
Darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
Saturday 6th May
This week has flown by so quickly having your brother staying with us. It has been wonderful having him around; to go out to dinner, have a drink, shopping, seeing Nan, and just being in the house. And of course, he came to visit you, sweetie, stopping for some quiet reflection with you.
We’ve just taken him to the airport for his flight to Portugal, so now we wait for a message from Faro to say he’s landed safely and is with his girlfriend. Then he’ll spend the day at the beach on Sunday and back to work on Monday.
We do miss you my darling
Precious Angel son
Love you so much
xxxxxx
Thursday 4th May
The black cat came visiting today
Bounding along and purring loudly
We haven’t seen him for quite some while
All sleek and black, looking at us proudly.
We’re not really people who like cats
But this one always seems to seek us out
And so, I wonder whether it’s a sign
From you; you’re all around and about.
We miss you so much my darling
We’ll never, ever stop loving you
Thinking of you all the time
My precious sweetheart Angel true.
xxxxxx
Wednesday 3rd May
Although only here for a while
You touched so many with your smile
For thirty years, then that was it
Your bright, burning candle just quit
Unexpectedly, without warning
We swiftly descend into mourning
We know our grief is there forever
Within our hearts, you’ll leave us, never.
My treasured Angel son
You’re now forever young
xxxxxx
Monday 1st May
The brightest star
In the sky tonight
That’s you, my Angel
Shining so bright.
The colourful bloom
In the flower bed
You’d grow the tallest
Sunflower, you said.
The fluffy, white clouds
Blowing in the sky
I know where you are
Right up there, on high.
Missing you like there’s no tomorrow
Loving you with all my heart
Thinking about you always
We’re not really ever apart.
xxxxxx