Wednesday 13th July

Always loved

Never forgotten

Forever missed

Constantly alongside

Eternally remembered

Within dreams

Endlessly recalled

Completely adored

Gently held

Silently nearby

Forever missed

Never forgotten

Always loved.

    
xxxxxx

Tuesday 12th July

There is no break from grief

It’s there all the time.

Bubbling quietly under the surface

Or volcanic in it’s explosivity.

Waking up each morning

Not knowing what’s in store.

What will be the trigger?

What will trip the detonator?

Resulting in a chaotic chain reaction

Or a continuous dull, slow ache.

One thing is for certain

There’ll be no end in sight

No completion, or wrapping up.

This grief will last a lifetime

Ending when I see you again.

Loving you forever

Missing you daily

Blowing kisses

Angel son

xxxxxx

Monday 11th July 

In…….

Another life

Another time

Another dimension

Another space

Another universe

Another world

All would be well.

You would still be here.

Life would be complete.

Missing you so much

Love you forever; always have, always will.

Darling Angel son.

xxxxxx

Saturday 9th July

 
Last night, or very early this morning to be more precise, we accompanied the ambulance carrying Nan to the hospital.

She had become quite dehydrated and hadn’t been eating her food. An ambulance was called just after six in the evening, but didn’t turn up until ten thirty at night ~ Nan wasn’t considered a priority case.

After the paperwork and processing was completed in Accident and Emergency, it was after midnight when Nan was settled into a side room, with a saline drip, and bloods being taken. We left her in safe hands, and arrived home a little before two in the morning.

She was scared, confused and tearful, but definitely in the right place to be looked after, hydrated and somewhere to build up her strength.

When I phoned the hospital this morning, I was told that Nan had spent ten hours in A & E, and had only just been moved to a ward. Ten hours. A miracle she wasn’t climbing the walls by then.

Anyway, when we visited this evening, she was in a room on her own, still a little tearful, but with a bit more colour in her cheeks. She did though have a little sickness, and was quite embarrassed.

More tests will be carried out on Monday, and a proper diagnosis will be made by that evening. 

I think you would have been really worried about your Nan, and would expect nothing but the best for her. You loved her, and she loved you so very much.

Hopefully by Monday we will have better news.

Walking through the corridors of the hospital, I felt you with me every step of the way. I purposely bypassed the ward where you spent your last four months. Too many sad, bad, hurtful, sorrowful memories.

Remembering you today and always.

Love you forever.

Sweetheart Angel son.

xxxxxx

You certainly did love your grandma. (Eleven months old)

Friday 8th July

When you fell asleep

I couldn’t bring you back

When you fell asleep

I didn’t want to give you back.

I love you so much.

I miss you every day.

Moon and back.

xxxxxx

A bright sliver of a rainbow this evening at the beach

Like a colourful shooting star

Was that you, my darling?

Late evening sun

Thursday 7th July

I miss you so much, and wanted to send a great big hug.

I think of you so much, and wanted you to know your memory lives on.

I love you so much, and wanted to blow kisses to heaven.

That you’re no longer in my world, breaks my heart again and again.

I just can’t believe you’re gone; you’re not coming back.

Love you forever.

Always have, always will.

Dearest Angel son.

xxxxxx

Wednesday 6th July

Such a happy smile you had

Enjoying all of life’s adventures

It was wonderful to see you glad

Having fun with simple pleasures

August 2013 (Sea World and Busch Gardens, Florida)

Missing you my smiling, laughing son

A grin as bright as the sunflowers

You really were a special someone

So lucky to have you as ours.

Love you baby
Missing you always.

xxxxxx

Monday 4th July

Yesterday evening when we went out for a stroll, we were hoping to see the pod of dolphins that have regularly been seen swimming across the surfing beach just down the hill from where we live.
We did see them, jumping and splashing out of the sea, but they were quite a long way off shore, and my phone couldn’t really capture any good photographs of them.
These images below, were taken the previous evening, and I think are absolutely outstanding.
Right place, right time, right camera.

(The four images above were taken by Karen O’dell, of St. Ives)

I’m sure you would have loved to watch these animals, playfully jumping through the waves with the surfers.
You did have a wonderful time with these gentle creatures back in 2008, in the Florida Keys, hesitant at first, but ending up with a large smile, having swum across the lagoon, holding onto to Kibbies’ fin.

Making friends with Kibbie

Using sign language

Off on your solo swim

Making friends

My sweetheart dolphin Angel

Swim my Angel, far and wide
Through the surf you glide
Wish you were by my side
But in my heart you reside.

Love you forever
Always have, always will.

xxxxxx

Yellow boats, all in a row