Tuesday 18th October
Missing your sweet little face
You’ve left a big empty space
Smiles and laughter, no trace
Your cheekiness we can’t replace
But I know I’ll see you someplace
Can’t wait for a gentle embrace.
Fly high Starman
Amongst the stars you chase
Forever in our hearts
Gone to rest in a higher place.
xxxxxx
August 2012
Peaceful beside the waterfall
A quiet moment
Low tide in the harbour
Bright and breezy
Monday 17th October
Walking along the harbour front
Thinking of you as I always do
The tide coming in over the sand
And a beautiful sky of azure blue.
Thoughts of you come to mind
How you would walk up and down
Along the pavement, across the wharf
Browsing the book shops in the town.
A simple and innocent way of life
No worries at all, completely carefree
Enjoying the fresh air, being outdoors
Shoes in the sand, watching the sea.
So, walking along thinking of you
Many memories come tumbling fast
Turning around, I think you’re there
Just like always, in those times past.
Missing our walks together
My darling Angel son
Loving you forever
Sweetheart, precious one.
xxxxxx
Sunset over Man’s Head this evening
Sunday 16th October
That same person, I’ll never, ever be
On the outside, I might look like me
Coping, really quite strong, I agree
But beneath the mask, a harsh reality
You’re gone, and I’ve been left lonely
A massive void, future on hold, you see
Nothing but a broken pile of debris
Everything changed, your spirit set free
In the blink of an eye, just a memory…..
Things will never be the same
It will never be the same
Life will never be the same
I will never be the same.
That same person, I’ll never, ever be….
Love you forever.
Darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
Blustery afternoon at Godrevy
Low tide with kite boarders in the distance
Early evening, high tide at Porthmeor
Cloud reflections
A faint rainbow over the island
Saturday 15th October
You’re my sweetheart, shining star
Flying high, flying free, flying far.
Sparkling brightly in the night sky
Beyond the clouds, up there so high.
Full moon glowing across the deep sea
Silver pathway bringing you back to me.
Even when you’re hidden from sight
In my dreams, you appear at night.
Seen, or unseen, I know you’re there
Your loving presence is everywhere.
And so my precious, shining star
I know in my heart is where you are.
Fly high Starman Angel son.
xxxxxx
Surf rolling in
Looking out to Man’s Head
Sunny Saturday at the beach
Flying high over the harbour
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Friday 14th October
Today is Dad’s birthday, and I’m sure you would have wished him a Happy Birthday in your own cheeky and mischievous way.
We missed you being here today; celebrating birthdays is really not the same anymore. It’s all a bit low key now. Rather muted and quite sombre. Almost as if you’re not allowed to smile and have fun. I know it shouldn’t be that way, and you certainly wouldn’t want it like that, but it just seems disrespectful, or unnerving somehow, to ‘celebrate’, knowing you’re not here to join in.
Thinking of you always.
Missing you like crazy.
Love you forever.
Beloved Angel son.
xxxxxx
Dad, your brother and you. Australia 1990
You, your brother and Dad, climbing trees in our garden. Australia 1991
You and Dad, on your 7th birthday. Merimbula, NSW.
Thursday 13th October
Your beautiful soul
Never forgotten.
Your spirit free at last
Flying high.
Promise to be
My sweetheart Angel.
I promise I’ll be there
Forever and always.
I will grieve
I will always remember
I will keep you in my heart
I will never stop loving you.
xxxxxx
Harbour high tide
Wednesday 12th October
I’ve been missing you daily….
Five hundred and eighty times.
But I have loved you
Since the day you were born.
I’ve been missing you for months….
Nineteen of them to be exact.
But I loved you
Even before you were born.
I’ll go on missing you forever….
That will not change
My love for you is eternal
It was, it is, and will be.
Sweetheart Angel son.
xxxxxx
Looking out to sea from the top of the town
Tuesday 11th October
I might not be able to hold you
But I still feel your presence
And that’s all that matters.
The hurt in my broken heart
Is a painful, constant reminder
That my love is still as strong.
Fly high Starman
Precious Angel son.
xxxxxx
An almost empty beach, this afternoon
The harbour
Monday 10th October
Ripples of grief undulate outwards
Moving away and bouncing back
Ripples that will be felt forever
Sometimes throwing you off track
Now and then ripples turn into waves
Gathering height and much power
Crashing and knocking you sideways
Unexpectedly, your breath to devour.
But today, ripples have a slow rhythm
Sparkling gently across the clear sea
The crisscross patterns moving
As if they’re bringing you back to me.
Thinking of you.
Missing you.
Love you.
xxxxxx
Sunny afternoon at the harbour
Sunday 9th October
You’re there
And I’m here
What I wouldn’t do
To have you near.
Off to heaven
You did go
Flying free
But I miss you so.
Love you baby
With all my heart
Forever and always
Never apart.
xxxxxx
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 