Saturday 16th January

“and tonight,
I’ll fall asleep with
you in my heart.”

When I do fall asleep tonight,
I know you’re there in my heart.
For that is where I care for you,
So we’ll never, ever be apart.

In the silent sadness of my dream,
You appear with hands held out.
A great big smile, twinkling eyes,
You’re with me, I have no doubt.

Our hearts beat with each other,
Together again is where we’ll be.
My sleepy head upon the pillow,
I’ll be loving you, unconditionally.

I miss you, my Angel.
Love you forever.
Beloved son.
xxxxx

Friday 15th January

“The snow is crisp
The stars are bright.
I spread my arms and I take flight.
Wings fluttering as I fly,
up into the evening sky.”

As the temperatures fall, and reports of snow are given on the news channels, I am reminded of your first time playing outside in the white stuff.

You were two years old, it was 1987 and we were living in Devon.
One morning we woke up to find the garden was covered in snow.
You had such a lovely time touching, squeezing and stamping footprints on the ground.
A beautiful smile lit up your face: you were mesmerised by this new experience.

You are my Angel snow baby.
Flying high in the evening sky.
I love you sweetheart.
I miss you so very much.

xxxxx

Thursday 14th January

“and I will see you
someday again in
      the clouds.”

These were the clouds and blue skies over the harbour this afternoon.
A pretty day, with chilly, biting winds.
Could you see me looking up, for you?
Were you looking down, for me?
I miss you so very much.
I really wish you were here.

Love you Angel.
Dearest son.
xxxx

Wednesday 13th January

Remember I love you.
I love you forever.
I’ll always love you.
Forget you, never.

Memories I’ll cherish.
Cherish them forever.
Memories won’t fade.
Recall them whenever.

Your heartbeat is safe.
Safe in my heart.
I feel my heart beating.
We’re never apart.

xxxxx

Tuesday 12th January

Ten months ago you passed away.
And I think of you every single day.
We tried so hard to make you stay.
But we know we’ll see you someday.

With Angel wings you flew up high.
I can’t believe it, I don’t know why.
Sometimes I just sit here and cry.
I love you my darling, sweetie pie.

xxxxx

Sunday 10th January

Another sunset without you.
Another day without you here.
Another sunrise without you.
Another month, a new year.

Another long night without you.
Another morning, no wakeup call.
Another season without you.
Another with memories to recall.

I miss you so much.
Love you forever.

xxxxx

Saturday 9th January

I know the sun
Will come out tomorrow,
But without you,
It will never shine
As bright again.

And that’s the way
It seems to me.
The sky has lost
It’s glow, it’s brightness
The shine has gone.

I miss you.
More than I did yesterday,
But not as much
As I’ll miss you tomorrow.
Emptiness surrounds me.

Your smile and laughter
Lit up our lives.
Intense and demanding.
But never-ending
Surprises and joy.

And I know
The sun won’t shine
As bright again.
It’s warmth is there
The sparkle is gone.

Love you so very much.
Darling Angel son.
xxxxx

Friday 8th January

There will never be a day
When I won’t think of you.

Whatever I do, wherever I go
You are always on my mind.

The pain is not going away
I just miss you constantly.

I will remember your smile
To ease the sorrow I feel.

Love you forever sweetie pie.
Angel son, flying so high.

xxxxx

The beach this afternoon