Category Archives: Sunflower

Sep2

Another dinner

Posted on September 2, 2015 by MeRaw

Wednesday 2nd September

As your brother’s girlfriend is flying to Spain tomorrow to be with her mother, he phoned me earlier to see if we could all go out for dinner tonight. So it’s off to the Curry Garden for seven o’clock.

The meal was very good indeed. We spoke about all going to Spain together one day. We also talked of our previous holidays with you in Hong Kong, Chicago and Greece, and the good times we had.

We recalled traveling to the summit of the Peak in Hong Kong, and crossing the bay on the Star Ferry. We laughed at your brother when we remembered how upset he was when he couldn’t go on the rides at Ocean Park as he wasn’t tall enough, (he was only three years old then.) We reminded him of our trip to Stanley Market, where a man painted pictures on t-shirts for you both of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, with your names below. You loved those.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 1990

We told your brother about your amazingly tall sunflowers and how they’re just about to open. We haven’t had brilliant sunny days, but the plants have certainly grown and grown. When they’re ready, we’ll pick the first ones and take them to you. Your “biggest ever sunflower in the world”. That’s what you wanted.

Anyway, we said goodnight to your brother and his girlfriend, and wished her a safe journey for tomorrow.

We wished you could have come out to dinner with us. We miss your place at the table.

Sending you so much love and kisses.
Thinking of you always.
Sweet dreams.
Angel xxxx

The first of your sunflowers.

Aug24

Search in your heart

Posted on August 24, 2015 by MeRaw

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Monday 24th August

“Search in your heart and you will find,
I am no more than one step behind.
I walk with you, but you don’t see,
But in your heart, you know it’s me.”

Sometimes I do think that you are walking along with us. I feel that you are there, as we talk about you, remembering how you would react to certain situations. Or we think about what you would say in response to various questions.

We are reminded of you daily as we look in the garden at your ever-growing sunflowers. They must be over nine feet tall by now. The flower heads haven’t yet opened, but it won’t be long. These are the seeds that you bought, telling everyone you were going to grow the biggest sunflower in the world, and they have really turned into giants. I so wish you could see them. Perhaps you can look down on them and smile.

Yes, you are still with us, in spirit, in my heart. But it makes me so very sad that you are not actually here in person.
I miss everything about you, and I always will.

Love you forever.
Beloved Angel son.
xxxx

Aug10

Home safely

Posted on August 10, 2015 by MeRaw

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Monday 10th August

We arrived home safely this afternoon, still with aches and pains in our calves and shoulders, but they are somewhat easing. We all feel a great sense of achievement, having done something positive, and special, in memory and in honour of you. I dearly hope you are proud of us. Smiling down on us all.

After dropping off my sister, we came to see you. We talked for quite some time, telling you about our weekend climb to the top of Mount Snowdon ~ but you knew all about that anyway, didn’t you? Because you came along too.

Your beautiful flowers

We tidied your graveside flowers, as the weather had been quite stormy since we’d been away. Even your sunflowers were still going strong. It’s good to be back close to you.

Your horse standing guard

I think a lot of people learnt about you this weekend.
You were so very special.
Love you more than words can say.
Precious Angel xxx

Aug9

The day after Snowdon

Posted on August 9, 2015 by MeRaw

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Sunday 9th August

Oh my, what an amazing day yesterday turned out to be. We can’t stop thinking, talking, and remembering all that we achieved.

We keep looking at all the photographs and smiling. We truly had you in our hearts when we walked up Mount Snowdon.

The only downside is how our bodies are feeling this morning. Muscles we didn’t even know existed are aching and throbbing with every step we take. But the pain is worth it. We did our trek in honour of you. We wish we didn’t have to. We wish we were elsewhere. With you. But that is not to be.

As we made our return journey down South through Wales, the rain and mist were covering the mountain ranges. How lucky were we to have such splendid weather yesterday? You must have organised that for us.

And as we were driving along, we again passed the row of yellow, smiling sunflowers. You were waving us on our way again, weren’t you?

Waving sunflowers through the car window.

We wish you were still with us.
Love you so much my little sunshine.
Fly high my starman.
xxxx

Aug7

Driving to Caernarfon

Posted on August 7, 2015 by MeRaw

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Friday 7th August

An early start via Starbucks for the essential morning cappuccino, then we’re on our way to Wales, crossing the Severn Bridge. We’re on our way to Snowdon. For you.

Google Maps said the journey would take four hours. I picked out Builth Wells as a half way stop for a break, and that did work out at a little over two hours.

Driving along, we rounded a bend, and came across a superb display of sunflowers, with all the faces happily turned towards the sun. It was as if you were standing on the roadside, waving us along on our way. It did bring tears to our eyes. Lots of simple things seem to do that these days. Things that remind us of you.

The second half of the journey took much longer, as we were stuck behind slower traffic. We finally rolled into Caernarfon about three thirty, six hours after setting off. Early dinner and a cold beer were very welcome, followed by a stroll around the castle.

Caernarfon Castle

This is the first time in one hundred and twenty one days that we haven’t visited you at your resting place. But I feel your presence with us somehow. We have brought you along, and will take you up the mountain tomorrow. You are in our hearts, always. Plus, your toy dolphin slept on our hotel bed last night, and is here again tonight. I will put him in my backpack and walk him to the very top of Mount Snowdon. Of that you can be certain.

Sending kisses to Heaven.
Love you forever my Angel.
xxxx

Jul29

Heaven in our home

Posted on July 29, 2015 by MeRaw

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Wednesday 29th July

The sunflowers on your place of rest are looking beautiful today, facing the sun, so bright and colourful, holding their heads up tall and strong.

The sunflower seeds you bought, that Dad planted in the garden, have grown to almost five feet tall. The flower heads are just forming and should be ready to bloom in a few weeks.

It was your aim to grow the biggest sunflower ever. That’s why you bought the seeds with pocket money Nan gave you. I wish you were here now to see your plants growing. They’ll probably end up being taller than you.

You were our little ray of sunshine.
And now you’re up there in Heaven.
But there’s still a little bit of Heaven in our home, in our garden, in our hearts and in our lives.

And I miss you.

Love you my darling Angel.
xxxx