Monday 21st May
.
I love you like you’re still here
Why would I not?
I miss you with every beat of my heart
Why would I not?
I cry because you’ve gone
Why would I not?
I try to remember everything about you
Why would I not?
I think about you day and night
Why would I not?
But then, I know we’ll meet again
Why would we not?
.
My darling Angel son
xxxxxx
A warm and hazy Falmouth this morning
Sunday 20th May
.
This I promise
You’ll be with me
Together, forever
For eternity
.
No matter what
You’re a part of me
Together, forever
That’s how it will be
.
This I promise
My Angel son
Together, forever
Living as one
.
xxxxxx
Porthmeor beginning to fill up with holidaymakers
A face in the clouds…..
Or a dandelion puff ball…..
Saturday 19th May
.
Can my heart be unbroken?
Will the pain be eased?
When do the tears stop flowing?
Grief: the interminable disease
.
I love you sweetheart
xxxxxx
Porthmeor Beach this evening at 7pm, still warm and sunny
Surf life saving nippers first get-together of the year
The harbour still bathed in sunshine
Friday 18th May
.
Heaven took my son
Made him an angel
The hurt in my heart
Still so very painful
.
So unexpectedly
You left the family
Living without you
Our new reality
.
But you did give us
So much to remember
A beautiful life
Of time spent together
.
Missing you always
Forget you never
Darling Angel son
Love you forever
.
xxxxxx
Hazy sunshine this morning over the harbour
Thursday 17th May
.
I will always find you
When I look up to the sky
Beyond the wispy clouds
That’s where I know you fly
.
At night you lay your head
Upon a white, fluffy pillow
With stars twinkling overhead
As the breeze begins to billow
.
My darling Angel soaring high
My perfect little Starman
Do you see me looking for you?
Give me a sign when you can
.
Love you poppet
Sweetheart son
xxxxxx
Wednesday 16th May
.
No words
Just memories
No smiles
Only photographs
No laughter
Just love
.
My sweetheart
Precious Angel son
xxxxxx
Ripples left in the sand by the north westerly winds
Steely grey sea in the harbour
Tuesday 15th May
.
To Exeter hospital
Matching underwear day
The clinical drugs trial
Appointments underway
.
Dermatology for skin
Blood and obs with my nurse
Then it’s time for a break
From the medical universe
.
Then upstairs to x-ray
CT scan with contrast
Back and forth through the tunnel
It’s all over at long last
.
And the final stop will be
With my oncologist
Scanxiety sets in
Have to be an optimist
.
Now a long two week wait
For the consultant’s report
Just hoping all will be well
The days don’t turn out too fraught
.
Thinking of you my darling
Wishing you were with me
Wishing things had been different
That you, a survivor would be
.
Sweetheart Angel son
xxxxxx
Monday 14th May
.
Gift of an angel
Of that I know
Far too soon
You had to go
.
Angel of mine
Precious and true
Unwanted gift
Rather have you
.
Beloved son
xxxxxx
Porthmeor blue
Harbour reflections
Cloudy horizon
Seal Island boat
Glassy sea
Sunday 13th May
.
You’re in my heart
Not in my arms
Memories
Dull pain calms
.
You’re in my mind
Not here with me
Memories
So carefree
.
You’re in my soul
And there you’ll stay
Memories
Love convey
.
Love you
Miss you
Angel son
xxxxxx
Calm harbour this afternoon
Cooler on Porthmeor Beach
Saturday 12th May
.
Dark clouds gathering in the sky
People trudging across the sand
Food festival on the beach
Fish and chips, with beer in hand
.
Colourful flags fluttering
Music playing from the marquee
Bouncy castles and carousels
With much entertainment to see
.
I’m sure you were wandering too
Tasting and sampling all the food
Tacos, nachos and lemonade
Also sausages barbecued
.
Love you sweetheart
Missing you like crazy
Thinking of you daily
My darling Angel baby
.
xxxxxx
The annual Food Festival
On Porthminster Beach
Drawing a good crowd
Dark clouds and silver sea in the harbour
Lambeth Walk waves
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 