Friday 27th May

Just letting you know
I love you so
I miss you too
I think about you.

Every day, all day
That’s where you stay
Forever in my heart
So we’re never apart.

Sweetheart

xxxxxxx

Thursday 26th May

You were here
And we loved you
Unconditionally.

Now you’ve gone
Our hearts are
Irreparably broken.

That you were here
Means our hearts
Overflow with love.

Such a legacy
Of an amazing life
Shared with us all.

Love you forever
Sweetheart
Dearest Angel son.

(It’s been
Sixty three weeks
Since that evening.)

xxxxxxx

Wednesday 25th May

Flying high my sweetheart
Leaving Angel dust sparkles
Wherever your wings take you.

Sunbeams and shards of light
Finding a way through the leaves
Dappling, dancing with shadows.

In all the sunsets and sunrises
When the stars shine so brightly
That’s when I know you’re there.

Love you forever
My precious Starman
Beloved Angel son.

xxxxxxx

Morning coffee and a view of the harbour

Tuesday 24th May

Grief
A silence that screams so loudly
A pain that hurts so invisibly
An existence that is so lonely
An emotion that confuses so easily
A realisation that hits so tragically
Grief
An emptiness that can’t be filled
A reality that is forever damaged
A question that can’t be answered
A loss that won’t be replaced
Grief
A missing that will be eternal
A broken heart that can’t be fixed
A future that now will never be
A journey that takes a new path
Grief
A love that is everlasting
A life that won’t be forgotten
An Angel that is my son.

Love you sweetheart.

xxxxxxx

Monday 23rd May

I write about you……….
because I love you
because I miss you
because I’m proud of you
because I’ll always love you
because we had so much fun
because you meant everything
because you’re here in my heart
because I want to share my grief
because I need to keep remembering
because I’m living with the love you left.

Love you today, tomorrow, forever.
My darling boy.
Angel son.

xxxxxxx

Down to the sea........

Sunday 22nd May

In the middle of a moment
of happiness
Devastating pain waits silently
in the shadows.
Normalcy is turned upside down
in a few fleeting seconds.
A smile and carefree thought
frozen, smashed.

You were here, you’re not here
but you are here.
In a flash of chaos and turmoil
grief overwhelms.
It will always be there constantly
in the background.

Are you adept enough to
throw on the mask?
Did anyone else catch the
heartbreaking instant
When the sparkle turns dull
and tears well up?

It will be those many memories
that ease the sorrow
The remembered smiles and fun
the good times.
So fortunate that you existed
were part of our lives.
Such powerful emotions flow
from intense love.

And we do love you so very much.
We miss you everyday.

Beloved Angel son.

xxxxxxx

Saturday 21st May

I’ll keep on keeping on
Wearing the mask to hide the pain
I’ll keep on keeping on
Hiding my tears that fall like rain

I’ll keep on keeping on
Pretending that all is fine and ok
I’ll keep on keeping on
Trying to smile when all seems grey

I’ll keep on keeping on
Feeling so very sad that you’re gone
I’ll keep on keeping on
Because in my heart you’ll live on

I’ll keep on keeping on
Thinking of you in heaven above
I’ll keep on keeping on
Remembering you with so much love

Dearest Angel son

xxxxxxx

A dull and grey afternoon

Friday 20th May

Thoughts of you
Fill my head
Like millions
Of sparkling
Diamonds
In the darkest
Night time sky
So precious
Cherished and
Treasured
Twinkling, shining
The brightest star
That’s you
My Starman
Flying high tonight.

Love you sweetheart
Beloved Angel son.

xxxxxxx

Thursday 19th May

I love mummy
Love from Frank.

And I love you
Love from mummy.

Now and forever
Dearest darling son

A note from you that I found today, whilst tidying out some drawers

Such a sweet note
That made me cry.

To the moon and back
And all around the world.

Love you so much
My Angel Starman.

xxxxxxx

Wednesday 18th May

Remembering you
Is what I do.

A tear may fall
But love stands tall.

Memories I hold
Precious like gold.

A smile and kiss
It’s you I miss.

Love you forever
Sweet little treasure

Darling Angel son
Always forever young.

xxxxxxx

Pondering.......with a hint of a smile. Key West August 2010

Windy on Porthmeor Beach

Calmer in the harbour