Category Archives: Loss

Oct29

Todays and tomorrows

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Saturday 29th October
  

I used to know

My todays and tomorrows

The plans and adventures we would have

The excitement and happiness to come

  

I’d look forward to 

My todays and tomorrows

You were a big part of what we would do

Our family travels centred around you

    

I was happy with

My todays and tomorrows

A life free from worries and uncertainty

We laughed, we lived, loved each other

  

And now

My todays and tomorrows

Seem to be filled with a big, empty void

My heart aches for the missing piece

  

You are there

In all my yesterdays

And I’ll hold your memories close

Taking them forward with me

To new, but different

Todays and tomorrows.

  

Love you yesterday, today and tomorrow

Always have

Always will

Dearest darling Angel son.

xxxxxx

A sunny October afternoon

Cooler in the harbour

Oct28

Forever

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Friday 28th October
  

You are forever by my side

You are forever on my mind

You are forever with my spirit

You are forever in my thoughts

You are forever within my heart

You are forever part of my dreams

You are forever the story of my life

You are forever my Angel

You are my forever

  

And forever I will love you

Dearest Angel son

xxxxxx

Oct27

Our Charity Event

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Thursday 27th October
An update on the charity event that we held just over a couple of weeks ago…….£4000 raised, to be shared equally between our four chosen charities:

* Checkemlads ~ Testicular Cancer (in memory of you, my darling boy)

* Meningitis Now

* The Brain Tumour Charity

* Bowel Cancer

Such an awesome response from the local community, businesses, family and friends.

  

We miss you so much my darling.

The pain never goes away.

It’s been eighty five weeks

Since you breathed your last breath.

Every morning I wake up

Knowing you’re not there.

And it hurts.

xxxxxx

Oct26

Beautiful October

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Wednesday 26th October
  

A beautiful October, so blue, so still

You would have loved a day like today.

  

Calm and reflective, like clouds on the sea

Wandering along in your own quiet way.

  

Watching crowds enjoying the sunshine

Imagine you smiling as they laugh and play.

  

I know you are there, my Angel son

Walking beside me, is where you’ll stay.

  

Love you forever

Missing you always

xxxxxx

Such a pretty afternoon to play on the slipway

Children having fun padding

The water in the harbour was so still

Perfect for paddleboarding

So blue, so still

Oct24

Walking

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Monday 24th October
  

Walking along the harbour front

Grey, dark clouds threaten overhead.

Coats pulled tightly with faces pinched

The heavy rain puddles where we tread.

“Don’t moan: we need water to survive”

So many times, you would have said.

Arriving home, completely sopping wet

You’d strip off, dive under the bedspread.

But now you’re there, behind the clouds

Wishing you were here with us, instead.

  

Sweetheart Angel son

Flying high beyond the rainbows

Love you forever

xxxxxx

The Stennack River turning the waves brown with run-off from the fields

Oct23

Just not right

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Sunday 23rd October
  

That you’re not here is just not right

You had so much more to give

The evening when your soul took flight

Thought you had more years to live.

  

I know you’ve found the perfect peace

Now in heaven upon clouds you lay

And from your pain you have release

But I miss you so every single day.

  

My brave little soldier

Love you forever

Never becoming older

Angel son forever.

xxxxxx

Half term holidaymakers, surfers and families on Porthmeor Beach

Grey skies over the harbour; rain is not far away

Oct21

New flower

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Friday 21st October
  

A new flower blossomed this morning

Deep, golden red petals facing the sun

It’s delicate beauty brings a smile 

As I think of you, my darling one.

  

For whom does the flower unfold?

Displaying all it’s intricate colouring 

Yet briefly, only for a finite time 

To me, it’s elegance is everything.

  

Growing into something so beautiful

Unfurling slowly for it’s own joy

Bringing colour into the autumn day

Standing proud, just for you, my boy.

  

Love you my sweetheart.

Treasured Angel son.

xxxxxx

Overcast this afternoon

Oct20

Random act of kindness

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Thursday 20th October
  

Today I have been rendered absolutely speechless, lost for words, taken aback, by the unbelievable kindness of a friend of mine.

Having met a couple days ago in our local coffee shop, where she admired an agate necklace I was wearing, we chatted about her hobby of beading; she said she loved to make her own jewellery, including more intricate designs of beadwork

Today we met again, and as I approached the table in the coffee shop, I saw that she had laid out numerous beautiful necklaces. Made of semi-precious stones, they looked exquisite: agate, opal, turquoise, quartz, amethyst, tourmaline…….a veritable treasure trove.

I was under the impression that I was going to admire them, pick one out for myself, and pay half her ticket price. (The tickets detailed the stones used and the cost a shop or gallery would be expected to pay, followed by their mark-up).

So then the surprise came. She said: “They’re all yours. Take them. Sell them to friends. These are for Frank’s Fund.”

There must be over twenty beautiful, chunky, sparkly, tactile, wonderful necklaces, and words just can’t express my gratitude for what she has done for us.

Such an awesome, random act of phenomenal kindness.

Raising money in your memory ~ Frank’s Fund. Extraordinarily touching.

Love you my sweetheart.

Precious Angel son.

xxxxxx