Category Archives: brain tumour

The road to Wales

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Friday 5th August
  

We left home yesterday morning to drive to Bristol, battling with the summer holiday traffic. We arrived at our destination late this afternoon: a terrific pub within the walls of Caernarfon Castle, built in 1522. The rooms are quite individual, with creaky floors, beamed ceilings and thick walls. Our room is right over the entrance, and we look out upon the children’s playpark and the castle ruins.

We are here to join up with about two hundred other people for the annual Testicular Cancer Memorial Trek walking up Mount Snowdon. 

Last year we took eight hours to complete the round trip, with many, many stops along the way, and at least a good hour at the summit. It really was a monumental effort for us not-very-fit people.

This year I have booked train tickets, and our aim is to catch the Snowdon Mountain Railway train to the summit, and walk down.

Hopefully this time we will have a lot more energy for the descent, and complete it in a quicker time, arriving back at the beginning before 6:00pm, when almost every one else had gone home.

But the day is not about a race; it’s about remembering those who have been taken by this cruel disease, and raising awareness.

We will be thinking of you, my darling, every step of the way. Your spirit will walk along with us.

Love you so very much.

Missing you every single day.

Precious Angel son.

xxxxxx

The view from our room

Castle walls

Roadway inside the castle walls, through the archway

A dark doorway

Frankie Angel bear is with us

Angel

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Thursday 4th August
   

My son is an Angel

The brightest star.

He stands beside me

Wherever we are.

  

My son is an Angel

In heaven above.

I blow him kisses

Send him my love.

  

My son is an Angel

We miss him so.

We’ll be together

Of this I know.

  

Love you forever.

Sweetheart Angel son.

xxxxxx

Time

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Wednesday 3rd August
  

Time seems to stand still

But everything else goes on.

You are missed every single day

And we can’t believe you’ve gone.

  

That night happened a lifetime ago

You fell asleep and didn’t wake up

Leaving us so broken-hearted

We won’t get to see you all grown-up.

    

It will always feel like yesterday

No matter how much time has passed

The day your heart stopped beating

And you breathed your very last.

  

Time. I thought we’d have more

To live, to like, to love, to laugh

More time with you to share

Now all that’s left; a photograph.

  

Love you.

Always have.

Always will.

xxxxxx

Busy and bright this afternoon

Joyful reflection

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Tuesday 2nd August
   

The wind gusts with melancholy

The mist surrounds with gloom

The sky is grey with despondency

The rain falls with misery

The earth is coated with sorrow

The waves break mournfully

  

And yet, you are my dear, sweet Angel

A smile from your photograph 

Brightens the most sombre of days

Your face beams sunshine happiness

Your memories invoke joyful reflection

Love you forever, to the moon and back

xxxxxx

A grey and overcast afternoon

Raindrops on your roses

My darling

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Monday 1st August
   

My darling, sweetheart Angel boy

Who always brought us so much joy.

You’re there forever in my  dreams

Beneath those sparkling moonbeams.

  

If I could hold you in my arm

I would see you came to no harm.

As you are now my shining star

I’ll follow you, wherever you are.

  

The tears are flowing from my eyes

I know you’re now in paradise.

I see you in the clouds above

From here, I send you all my love.

 

xxxxxx

Beneath the birch tree, looking up at the lichen patterns, sheltering us from the rain 

Both

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Sunday 31st July
    

I think of my boys

Night and day.

One is with me

One is in heaven.

So, I live in two places

Here, and where you are.

I love you both

With all my heart.

Moon and back

And all the world.

xxxxxx

July 1990 (twenty six years ago). Waiting outside Jumbo floating restaurant, Hong Kong, (you, me and your brother)

The harbour this afternoon

Sammy seal

Looking for fish in the harbour

The beach

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Saturday 30th July
  

It was a very busy day at the beach today. So many holidaymakers had pitched their tents on the sand, sitting back catching the rays, hiring surfboards, or throwing frisbees.

You were not one for lazing around, relaxing or sunbathing; you were always on the go, walking, reading, playing in the surf.

I’m not sure you would have enjoyed the beach today; far too many people and far too noisy.

Three years ago today we were in North Myrtle Beach, the sea was 30℃ and the air temperature 35℃. (I know this, as Facebook reminded me). We had spent a couple hours on the beach, early morning, before it became oppressively hot. By midday you had become bored anyway, and so it was time to move off, find somewhere with air-conditioning, and have some lunch and a cold drink.

Our shaded spot, beneath a parasol (three years ago NMB)

The beautiful ocean

Dad, you, and me. North Myrtle Beach, 30.7.13

We do miss you so much, and remember the many years we spent going on holiday to America. Starting off in South Carolina, then moving south to Florida, so you could enjoy the theme parks.

Thinking of you today, as always.

Missing you every day.

Loving you forever.

Sweetheart Angel son.

xxxxxx

So very busy at the beach today

Not a lot of space left

Bright, blue sky today

Tonight’s sunset at 9:15pm

Towards the sky

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Friday 29th July
  

Looking up towards the sky

Seeing the clouds trailing by

Blinking tears from my eye

And forever asking why.

  

It’s so hard, but I will try

To smile more, not to cry

Are you up there flying by?

Our Angel Starman up on high.

  

xxxxxx

Wispy clouds

Our Starman Angel

Holding hands

Everything changed

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Thursday 28th July

   

Everything changed

The day you went to heaven.

The fragility of life

Is much more acute.

That we must live

Like there’s no tomorrow

Is undeniable.

Living life to the full

But taking your memory

Everywhere we go.

  

xxxxxx

Another busy day at the beach

Through the flowers, to the sea, having fun in the surf

Memories are all I have

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Wednesday 27th July
   

Memories are all I have

But I do have so many

Better these I cherish

Than not to have any.

   

Those memories we made

Are precious and so special

Keeping them safe, in my heart.

My angel son, celestial.

  

xxxxxx