Tuesday 16th May
I live every single day
Without my darling son
Won’t be able to see you grow old
He’s now an Angel, a special one.
Fly free
Sleep peacefully.
We love you so, so much
To the moon and back.
Love you more
And all the world.
xxxxxxx
Thursday 11th May
You are the angel in my heart
Though you no longer walk this earth
I know your spirit is by my side
And I’ll love you for all I’m worth.
You are the angel in my heart
But I know you’re up in heaven
Our memories will last a lifetime
And my love for you won’t lessen.
Missing you sweetheart
Darling Angel son.
Tuesday 9th May
Alarm goes at o-crack sparrow. I’m up early for my month 42 check-ups at two hospitals in Exeter. First appointment is with the dermatologist at 10:45am ~ thorough skin check of all my various moles, solar lentigo, actinic keratosis, seborrheic keratoses, dysplastic nevus and checking of scars from various surgeries to remove a malignant melanoma and lymph nodes, skin graft, biopsies and a basal cell. All seems ok, apart from some sun damage at the top of my forehead, for which I am given some cream: three days worth, that will take the top layer of skin off, repairing the damage.
My next stop is with my trials nurse ~ I am on the CombiAd trial, for the adjuvant treatment of Stage 3 Metastatic Malignant Melanoma. Bloods, weight, temperature, blood pressure and pulse, all duly taken and noted.
Then it’s on to the delightful CT scan with contrast, of the thorax, abdomen and pelvis.
My final stop is with my oncologist, who can inform me, tentatively, that he sees nothing suspicious on the scan, but I have to wait for the official radiographer’s report, which will take about ten days.
However, I can finally leave, about 5:00pm, knowing that all seems well ~ with a massive sigh of relief. Breathe………..
So, that’s it for another six months.
Wishing you were here sweetheart, to share with me. Wishing you had had good news, and were looked after as well as I am being cared for.
Wishing……
If only…….
In hindsight……..
Why……..
Miss you more than ever
Darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
Saturday 6th May
This week has flown by so quickly having your brother staying with us. It has been wonderful having him around; to go out to dinner, have a drink, shopping, seeing Nan, and just being in the house. And of course, he came to visit you, sweetie, stopping for some quiet reflection with you.
We’ve just taken him to the airport for his flight to Portugal, so now we wait for a message from Faro to say he’s landed safely and is with his girlfriend. Then he’ll spend the day at the beach on Sunday and back to work on Monday.
We do miss you my darling
Precious Angel son
Love you so much
xxxxxx
Thursday 4th May
The black cat came visiting today
Bounding along and purring loudly
We haven’t seen him for quite some while
All sleek and black, looking at us proudly.
We’re not really people who like cats
But this one always seems to seek us out
And so, I wonder whether it’s a sign
From you; you’re all around and about.
We miss you so much my darling
We’ll never, ever stop loving you
Thinking of you all the time
My precious sweetheart Angel true.
xxxxxx