Friday 10th June
I reflect on what was
I reflect on what is
I reflect on what might have been.
I must see and live with what is.
I can shape and change what will be
For the better.
But I still reflect on what was
And I will try and smile more
Reflecting on all the amazing memories.
Love you forever.
Missing you every day.
My darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
The harbour this afternoon
Thursday 9th June
Such painful, sad, bittersweet memories this morning.
Your brother flying home from Spain, and us picking him up from Bristol.
The last time this happened, Dad took you in the car to the airport.
As we stood by your grave in the sunshine, we remembered that day.
Because on that fateful evening, after you all arrived safely home
You went up to our bed, for a sleep, and didn’t wake up again.
I tried. I tried so hard to save you. I held your still-warm body in my arms.
But I couldn’t bring you back; you slipped slowly away.
We didn’t have a chance to say one last goodnight, love you sweetie.
And so this morning, when we visited you, it all came back.
We talked to you, we cried, sobbed. We told you we loved you.
This isn’t right, you should be here with us, driving to collect your brother.
Love you so much my darling.
Beloved Angel son.
xxxxxx
Wednesday 8th June
If I want to wish upon a star, which one is yours?
Among the constellations, our love surely endures.
When I look up to the obsidian heavens above
Searching for you, wanting to send all my love.
Are you the brightest, twinkling in the dark?
You always did want to leave your mark.
My little heavenly boy, flying on Angel wings up high
Leaving a sparkling trail behind you, in the night sky.
To the moon and back, around the planets and stars, too
My heart, my soul, and all my love, I give to you.
Missing you like crazy, my darling Angel baby.
Back together, eventually, we’ll be.
xxxxxxx
Tuesday 7th June
I came across these photographs today, and had to smile……
We were on holiday, with my father, in Tortola BVI, and you used to like putting on my sunglasses.
Strike a pose……
Such a sweetheart.
A happy little soul.
Cheeky monkey sometimes.
Missing you every day.
Love you to the moon and back.
Dearest Angel son.
xxxxxx
Monday 6th June
You were born in 1985, and it was during that year that Sister Sledge released their single Frankie.
A catchy, toe-tapping song, purportedly written about Frank Sinatra, but we know it really was written for you, don’t we?
The song makes you smile and sing-a-long, with you.
Our little Frankie.
Our darling boy.
Now our Angel in heaven.
Missing you every day.
Loving you forever.
xxxxxx
Sunday 5th June
Just thinking of you
That’s not really new
Just wanted to say
In my own little way
Just love you so much
And missing your touch
Just sparkle so bright
Up in the sky tonight
Just to let me know
So I see your star glow
Precious Angel son
xxxxxx
Sunny corner of the harbour today
Saturday 4th June
You always were a big kid at heart, never really growing up, enjoying childlike adventures, and being happy with the simple things in life.
Fearless, curious, innocent and carefree too, you woke each morning ready to have fun.
You looked forward to, and really enjoyed our annual summer holiday visits to America. You never grew tired of the theme parks, year after year.
You would scour the internet for news of different rides to try, shows to watch, new experiences to test. You delighted in the merriment the white knuckle rides brought you.
Within the theme parks you also enjoyed those sections for younger children. Scrambling over adventure playparks, meeting with characters, and gaining pleasure from the rides for little ones.
And we miss that fun in our lives.
You allowed us to share your extended childhood for thirty years.
We miss that so much.
Thinking of you each and every day.
Missing you every minute of every hour.
Loving you forever and forever.
xxxxxx
A big kid in Toon Land, Islands of Adventure, August 2012
Meeting the gorgeous Betty Boop ~ even her security guard had a laugh
A big, wide grin ~ Betty Boop made you feel so special
Popeye was pretty cool, too
Friday 3rd June
You are my sunshine sweetheart
Walking with me, we’re never apart.
With so much love to give and impart
Although, from our lives you did depart.
My precious ray of bright sunshine
On the beach, down by the shoreline.
Dipping toes into the sparkling brine
Happy beach boy, dear child of mine.
Love you.
Miss you.
xxxxxx
A beautiful sunny afternoon
Busy beach today
You, walking along the beach in Islamorada, August 2010
Among the palm trees, The Moorings, January 2007
Thursday 2nd June
I hold you in my memory
I find you in my dreams.
Flying high, twinkling bright
Soaring on your wings.
My perfect, shining star
My dearest, beloved Angel.
To the moon and back again
I’ll love you forevermore.
Gone too soon, but now at peace
Precious lad, forever young.
xxxxxxx
This afternoon on the harbour
Wednesday 1st June
Standing beside you
Quietly whispering
I love you, I miss you
Comforts me, for a while
Alleviates the pain, briefly.
Looking at your photograph
I blow you a kiss
I love you, I miss you
I smile at your face
Or cry… Or both.
Tucked safe within my heart
I know you’re with me
I love you, I miss you
My Angel up in heaven
Only a thought away.
xxxxxxx
August 2013, Harbour Town, Hilton Head Island. A tree swing, a smile, a Star Trek book. Perfect
A warm glow at the end of the day
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 