Monday 31st October
Big kisses
Up in the sky
Big kisses
Sent as you fly
Big kisses
From you on high
Big kisses
But I still cry
Big kisses
I still ask why
Big kisses
Angel lullaby.
Dearest, darling beloved son
Now you’ll be forever young.
xxxxxx
First thing this morning, this was in the sky as we walked out of the front door xxx
Driving home, this afternoon, another kiss in the sky, from you xxx
Faint kisses above a quiet beach later on this afternoon xxx
Sunday 30th October
“Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
Skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.
I love you in the morning
and in the afternoon,
I love you in the evening
and underneath the moon,
Oh, skidamarink adink adink,
skidamarink adoo,
I love you.”
Looking along your bookshelves this morning, I noticed a book of songs that you loved: paperback, a little worn and creased, but so well-loved.
Growing up, you would enjoy listening to children’s nursery rhymes, and would wander around, earplugs in, holding on tight to your Sony Walkman, playing cassettes of songs and stories.
In fact whatever age, you loved listening in this way: whether it was pop songs, audio books, the radio or Disney soundtracks.
When we were in Australia, you came across the Wee Sing songs, and learnt all the words to Skidamarink, a nonsensical name, but catchy tune, and we would all sing it together on car journeys.
Listening to this again today took me back to those simple days, filled with love, laughter, songs and innocence.
I do love you; in the morning, afternoon, evening and underneath the moon. And I always will.
Beloved Angel son
Skidamarink adink adink
I love you
xxxxxx
Beneath the clouds and golden leaves
Beautiful tree near your resting place
Sunny Porthmeor Beach this afternoon
Harbour high tide
Saturday 29th October
I used to know
My todays and tomorrows
The plans and adventures we would have
The excitement and happiness to come
I’d look forward to
My todays and tomorrows
You were a big part of what we would do
Our family travels centred around you
I was happy with
My todays and tomorrows
A life free from worries and uncertainty
We laughed, we lived, loved each other
And now
My todays and tomorrows
Seem to be filled with a big, empty void
My heart aches for the missing piece
You are there
In all my yesterdays
And I’ll hold your memories close
Taking them forward with me
To new, but different
Todays and tomorrows.
Love you yesterday, today and tomorrow
Always have
Always will
Dearest darling Angel son.
xxxxxx
A sunny October afternoon
Cooler in the harbour
Friday 28th October
You are forever by my side
You are forever on my mind
You are forever with my spirit
You are forever in my thoughts
You are forever within my heart
You are forever part of my dreams
You are forever the story of my life
You are forever my Angel
You are my forever
And forever I will love you
Dearest Angel son
xxxxxx
Thursday 27th October
An update on the charity event that we held just over a couple of weeks ago…….£4000 raised, to be shared equally between our four chosen charities:
* Checkemlads ~ Testicular Cancer (in memory of you, my darling boy)
* Meningitis Now
* The Brain Tumour Charity
* Bowel Cancer
Such an awesome response from the local community, businesses, family and friends.
We miss you so much my darling.
The pain never goes away.
It’s been eighty five weeks
Since you breathed your last breath.
Every morning I wake up
Knowing you’re not there.
And it hurts.
xxxxxx
Wednesday 26th October
A beautiful October, so blue, so still
You would have loved a day like today.
Calm and reflective, like clouds on the sea
Wandering along in your own quiet way.
Watching crowds enjoying the sunshine
Imagine you smiling as they laugh and play.
I know you are there, my Angel son
Walking beside me, is where you’ll stay.
Love you forever
Missing you always
xxxxxx
Such a pretty afternoon to play on the slipway
Children having fun padding
The water in the harbour was so still
Perfect for paddleboarding
So blue, so still
Tuesday 25th October
Nothing will erase
The love I have for you
Your wonderful memories
Stay safely in my heart
Precious Angel son
Thinking of you as always.
xxxxxx
Monday 24th October
Walking along the harbour front
Grey, dark clouds threaten overhead.
Coats pulled tightly with faces pinched
The heavy rain puddles where we tread.
“Don’t moan: we need water to survive”
So many times, you would have said.
Arriving home, completely sopping wet
You’d strip off, dive under the bedspread.
But now you’re there, behind the clouds
Wishing you were here with us, instead.
Sweetheart Angel son
Flying high beyond the rainbows
Love you forever
xxxxxx
The Stennack River turning the waves brown with run-off from the fields
Sunday 23rd October
That you’re not here is just not right
You had so much more to give
The evening when your soul took flight
Thought you had more years to live.
I know you’ve found the perfect peace
Now in heaven upon clouds you lay
And from your pain you have release
But I miss you so every single day.
My brave little soldier
Love you forever
Never becoming older
Angel son forever.
xxxxxx
Half term holidaymakers, surfers and families on Porthmeor Beach
Grey skies over the harbour; rain is not far away
Saturday 22nd October
Missing you more
Than anyone knows
Life is on hold
The emptiness grows
Pain is still raw
As time just slows
The mind wanders
In dark shadows
As a tear falls
Sorrow and woes
Darling Angel son
My love overflows.
xxxxxx
The Journey of My Left Foot (whilst remembering my son) 