Category Archives: cemetery

Gone

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Saturday 26th March

Gone . . . . . .
You’re not coming back.

Gone . . . . . .
Our whole life as once was.

Gone . . . . . .
Hopes, dreams and plans.

Gone . . . . . .

You have gone.
Those days are gone.
Everything has changed.

Gone . . . . . .

Gone, but never forgotten.
Gone, but memories remain.
Gone, but you’re within our hearts.
Gone, but there’s thirty years of living.

Gone . . . . . .

But you were here.
You did live,
You breathed,
You did exist.

And I love you for all that.
But the missing you is so hard.

Beloved Angel son.

xxxxxxx

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Tears in the heart

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Friday 25th March

“There are many tears in the heart
That never reach the eyes.”

A local tradition on Good Friday, is to go to the Boating Pond, at the top of the town, and watch all the children, (and many parents), sail their model yachts.
Dad and I, along with my sister, decided to drive up there.
Today was a beautiful, sunny day, and many participants had turned out with various watercraft.
You would have enjoyed people watching, and wandering around the pond, in the fresh air.

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The boating pond on Good Friday

Having spent some time watching the boats, we drove to a newly opened cafe/restaurant/micro brewery, at the top of the town, with spectacular views. Cappuccinos all round.
They served your favourite: chocolate brownies.

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Blue skies and seas surrounding the town

We then drove back home, and went off for a walk, fascinated by all the holidaymakers enjoying the sunny, but not too warm, weather. It’s still March, but so many families were on the beach, and in the water, as if it was the height of summer.

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A sunny corner of the harbour

The main surfing beach was fairly busy too, with the lifeguards now on duty, and the Surf School up and running.
I’m sure you would have walked along the beach, getting your shoes wet, full of sand and watching the waves.

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Porthmeor Beach today

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Bamaluz, looking towards Hayle

Just before we walked home, we stopped off in the church, and lit candles for you, and for your brother’s girlfriend’s mum.
It’s three hundred and seventy nine days since you went to heaven, my heart is still full of so much pain, but I try my hardest to keep the tears at bay, trying to keep them from my eyes.
I write your name in the book, asking for prayers to be said for you.

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We light candles for you

I wish you had been with us today.
Missing you like crazy
Precious Angel baby.

xxxxxxx

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Flowers in the late afternoon sun

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Sun and rainbow prism, through the trees

Wherever I go

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Thursday 24th March

Wherever I go
Whatever I do
Memories keep
Me near to you.

Whenever I travel
Whoever I meet
There you’ll stay
Within my heartbeat.

However I live
Forever I know
My love for you
Continues to grow.

Missing you every day.
Love you so much.
Beloved Angel son.

xxxxxxx

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Flowers in the rain today

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Warrior

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Wednesday 23rd March

My precious Angel warrior
Galloping across the skies
Filled with equine euphoria
As you catch another sunrise.

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You and your horse, Warrior

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You and Warrior, standing in front of the Fortune Centre of Riding Therapy

A number of years ago, when you attended the Fortune Centre, in the New Forest, we commissioned a painting of you, with your favourite horse.
You were eighteen, and had spent the most amazing three years gaining your Further Education through Horsemanship qualification.
Such an achievement for you, such happy times.

We miss those carefree days.
We miss you so very much.
Love you forever.
My precious Angel warrior.

xxxxxxx

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Sunshine at the beach today

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Blue skies, yellow sands and the Surf School

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High tide and sunshine in the harbour

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Forever in our hearts

First and last

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Tuesday 22nd March

You’re my first
And last thought
Of every
Single day.
I love you
My darling Angel.
The missing
Doesn’t get
Any easier.
The loving
Becomes
So much more
Intense.

xxxxxxx

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New bunny with primulas

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A grey afternoon at the beach, again

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Your bubble

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Monday 21st March

Bubbles flying in the breeze
Soaring here and there.

Rainbow colours encase
Moving and swirling like oil.

The film becomes ever thin
On the delicate spinning orbs.

All of a sudden, an explosion
Bursting, sprinkling droplets.

Bejewelled prisms of light
Then fall softly upon the earth.

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Having fun in a zorb bubble. You came across this in a children's play park, on an Easter visit to Plymouth. April 2010. Dad, me, you and auntie

Stay safe in your own little bubble
Protected from the outside.

Have fun, rolling and turning
Among the white clouds on high.

Dearest son up there in heaven
I’m blowing kisses to the sky.

xxxxxxx

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Just because

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Sunday 20th March

Just because I’m used to it,
Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt anymore.

My heart is broken,
But I still have to get up each morning.

On the outside, I’m coping,
Beneath the surface, is where pain lies.

You will always be my son,
I continue to talk to you and about you.

I don’t love you any less,
As time passes, I know I love you more.

No longer on this earth,
But I feel your heart beating with mine.

My first waking thought,
And my last one before I fall asleep.

I love you my darling,
I just wish you were here to tell you.

Night, night sweetheart,
Love you to the moon and beyond.

xxxxxxx

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A grey afternoon

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Power

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Saturday 19th March

One of your favourite characters from the television, when you were young, was He-Man. You loved the cartoon series, collected so many of the action figures, books, videos and DVD’s.
A friend of Nan’s even knitted you a He-Man jumper for your birthday once.
I had also bought you some original animation cels from both the He-Man and She-Ra cartoon series.
Throughout your life you always came back to these characters; more often than not, there would be a well-thought out moral at the end of each episode, as good triumphed over evil.
You did however, identify with the ‘baddie’ at times: Skeletor, or Evil-Lynn, as was your wont to be oppositional.

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Filmation. Mattel. Hallmark.

When we laid you to rest, it was with a flower covered pillow, holding He-Man’s sword, and the words ‘I have the power’.

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Your He-Man sword

My little He-Man.
All the power in the world
Couldn’t save you.
But you were
My true hero.
Master of the Universe.
Hold aloft your sword
Shout out loud
‘I have the power’.
Love you forever.

xxxxxxx

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There is no separation

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Friday 18th March

“Goodbyes are only for those
Who love with their eyes.
Because for those who love
With heart and soul,
There is no separation.”
                 ~ Rumi

I do love you with my heart and soul
Trying to keep emotions under control.

There is no separation between us now
I will hold you close forever, somehow.

Always with me, always by my side
Endless protection I will try to provide.

So tightly wrapped within my being
It’s always you of whom I’m dreaming.

There’ll be no farewells or goodbyes
Tilt my head, smile, look up to the skies.

For up above is where I shall find you
Soaring through clouds and sky so blue.

Within my heart, you’re there as well
I feel you beating, my precious Angel.

Love you with all my heart and soul.
xxxxxxx

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High tide in the harbour

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My darling Angel son

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Thursday 17th March

My darling Angel son
My mind is full of memories
My soul misses you desperately
My hands tremble at your absence
My days are emptier without you
My eyes are full of tears.

My darling Angel son
My smile recollects adventures
My heart loves you unconditionally
My dreams are filled with your presence
My life is enriched because of you
My spirit knows you’re close.

Love you forever
Sweet Angel son.
xxxxxxx

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