Tuesday 7th July
Shake it off. Shake it off.
I need to be more like Taylor.
I really wish I could shake off the dark cloud of depression that is following me around at the moment.
Becoming upset at the slightest thing, thought, sound, image or smell.
And three times today we spoke with different people who expressed their condolences. They said they missed seeing you walking around, that everyone looked out for you, to make sure you were safe. You were known by so many.
And then I got upset again when we visited your brother and his girlfriend after they had both finished work. We chatted over tea, about this and that, and I was just sad. Don’t know what brought it on. Probably thinking about you, which I do a lot.
I just miss you so very much.
Sometimes it really hits me hard, when I realise I won’t hear your voice again, nor see your smiling face, and we won’t be making plans together for the future.
Life doesn’t seem fair or very easy at the moment.
So Miss Swift, I need some help, so that I can feel better about myself and ‘Shake it off’.
Love you and miss you.
My sweet Angel son.